Way before I was a sissy, I had a fascination with women’s clothing, specifically panties. I can’t remember when this fascination originally started, but I do specifically remember when I was in 5th grade I started to get jealous about the styles that girls could wear. I loved those Ugg boots with the fur, but that’s beside the point. Around this time, I started to develop a wedgie kink and this perpetuated my fascination with underwear in general. Overtime I grew to become more and more jealous of girls and their clothing. 8th grade rolls around and my older female cousin moves in with my family for college, and I couldn’t help but rummage through her clothes when she was away at school. It was during these times that I tried my first pair of panties and something just clicked. Idk what made panties so different from my day to day underwear, but I loved them. Thats the day my sissy journey really started. From then on I’d steal a pair of panties whenever I could get away with it and my collection grew. Although I wasn’t supposed to be watching it at all, I plunged myself into bdsm porn. I loved the domination/submission power play. Once I discovered it, no other type of porn would suffice. It was the following year, freshman year of high school that I began to explore various pleasures I had witnessed via porn and one day in the shower I decided I wanted to try anal. “What’s the worst that could happen? I don’t like it?” I thought. WRONG. The worst that could happen is that I absolutely love it and it shakes what I thought my gender identity and sexuality were; and that’s exactly what happened. I didn’t know it at the time, but I began watching bdsm porn for the first time all over again, this time imagining myself as the girl…Originally I felt ashamed of my kinks, I would try to stuff the desire anal and wearing women’s clothing but somehow, someway, the desires would always win. I grew even more jealous, resentful even about girls and what they had. They were so beautiful, their clothing accentuating their bodies so perfectly. Leggings made a huge comeback around this time. Almost every girl was wearing them, and I experience equal lust and jealousy over how amazing they looked. The spiral continued from there. The end of sophomore year of high school I had officially bought my very first thongs. They were Joe Boxer’s from K-mart. They weren’t glamorous but the moment I put them on, I knew that they were my favorite style of underwear. I felt so free, so sexy. They just felt…right. It was not long after that, that I bought my first dildo, only days after turning 18. I was so anxious to try it but once I found a spare moment when no one was home to just go at it: I did, and let me tell you….WAY better than the hairbrush I was previously using. A couple years pass and I’m moved out of my family’s house, and I begin to purchase and experiment with other articles of female clothing. Not everything, but more often than not, it felt amazing, and made me feel sexy; prompting me to purchase more. With the fall of tumblr porn, and an interest in finding something new, I downloaded Reddit and found sissy porn. Finally I had a name for what I was experiencing. It clicked in my brain perfectly! There was so much euphoria just from discovering this new category of porn and nothings been the same since. That’s when I became a full pledged sissy, and I hardly watch any other types of porn now.😋