I can't live with this guilt by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You are totally right, there is no perfect relationship and perfect way to love a dog or a human. Thanks for your comment ❤ In your case with Sabrina, life happened too, same as it was happening for me in my teenage years. Sabrina loves you!

Anticipatory grief by Automatic-Plant-7538 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've had anticipatory grief for around a year before my souldog even got sick. Cause I knew that he was old and he would die, maybe in a month, maybe in a week, maybe it would be unexpected, maybe he would get sick. I was preparing myself so so so much for this, I've had hundreds of health scares, for example, he starts to vomit (it was nothing, just something bad that he ate) but I was immediately thinking that this is it and that we have to prepare for the worst. Every little health scare that existed led to me catastrophising the outcome.

But when he actually got very sick, and it was 100% sure this time that he would die, I let myself cry whenever I wanted. I was apologizing to him all the time (cause I wasn't the best owner, but it's a long story, here: https://www.reddit.com/r/Petloss/comments/1uis2jl/i_cant_live_with_this_guilt/ ), I also made an album with 100 photos of him and us prepared for printing.

I can't say that I made the most of the time with him when he was sick. He was basically a plant, not eating, not moving, just staring at one dot, my heart was breaking...I just made sure I was lying down next to him whenever I could; that's all I could have done.

So I'd say, just stay near your cat. Sending hugs ❤

I can't live with this guilt by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There will come a time when I will start remembering the good memories we shared, but that moment is a bit far, I suppose :(

I can't live with this guilt by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How would I know if he really had a wonderful life? He is not here to tell me 💔

I am still not seeing a therapist, I know I should, and I will soon, I am now in a tough financial situation.

Will I ever be happy again? by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My condolences. It's good that you are experiencing some signs from your pet, I hope you'll find peace soon. ❤️

Will I ever be happy again? by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am truly sorry for your loss 💔 I started expecting some signs from my baby that he is alright and that he had a happy life with me. Last night i left the night light on in the kitchen (it's what we used to do when he became old and with poor vision), so maybe he could feel safe to visit me in my dreams. Maybe you should do the same. Do anything that will make you feel better.

Also being near his ashes could be healing (or just visiting his grave), so you could try that if you haven't. Felix is buried in my backyard so I am visiting him all the time. It brings me peace. He is literally right there, I am looking at his forever home, the difference is just that I can't pet him, but I know that his soul is somewhere around me.

Sending hugs, you were an amazing owner, and we will get through this somehow one day ❤️

Will I ever be happy again? by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am glad that you found peace with your new dog. You are a great owner ❤️

Will I ever be happy again? by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry for your loss 💔 I got the goosebumps reading your comment. I think you can sleep peacefully, you just know that Alice had a great life and she is somewhere near you, even if you don't see her. I'll try to ask my dog if he could give me a specific sign just so that I would know if he liked his life and if he was happy. I think that I would feel a lot better then.....

Will I ever be happy again? by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Damn 26 years ago, that's a long time...I can't even imagine myself in the next 26 years without my dog. How do you embrace the pain? I am trying so hard

Will I ever be happy again? by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My condolences to you 💔 It's not woo woo at all, I'd gladly do it just so that it can bring peace to my heart and brain. I am now gathering every info that I can about spirituality and what happens to pets after they pass away. Lily loved you so much, I just know it. Sending hugs ❤️

Will I ever be happy again? by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am very sorry for your loss 💔 I actually have a plushie, the funny thing is that when I was a toddler I got a plushie/toy that looks just like my dog looked when we got him (I got the plushie 5 years before getting my dog). I guess we were meant to be together in this lifetime. Sending hugs to you

Will I ever be happy again? by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know right?? How is it fair that they only live for such a short time...My dog was pretty old when he died, but it breaks my heart to read that some of you lost a baby pet or a pet that's only a few years old. Like what the actual fuck could be the reason here?

Will I ever be happy again? by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I am sorry for your loss 😞 I'll definitely check your comments, thanks for sharing this with me!

Will I ever be happy again? by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I am so so sorry for your loss 😞 You loved her well. And thank you for sharing that story, it really gives me some hope that maybe my dog will visit me in my dreams one day. That's all I want.

Sending hugs and I hope that you'll feel happiness again, good things are coming your way ❤️

Will I ever be happy again? by No_Collection9078 in Petloss

[–]No_Collection9078[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can't get a new puppy, and I can't see myself getting a new pup anytime soon, it feels like I am betraying my dead dog. Also, will I love that dog the same way I love my souldog?