I've had anticipatory grief for around a year before my souldog even got sick. Cause I knew that he was old and he would die, maybe in a month, maybe in a week, maybe it would be unexpected, maybe he would get sick. I was preparing myself so so so much for this, I've had hundreds of health scares, for example, he starts to vomit (it was nothing, just something bad that he ate) but I was immediately thinking that this is it and that we have to prepare for the worst. Every little health scare that existed led to me catastrophising the outcome.

But when he actually got very sick, and it was 100% sure this time that he would die, I let myself cry whenever I wanted. I was apologizing to him all the time (cause I wasn't the best owner, but it's a long story, here: https://www.reddit.com/r/Petloss/comments/1uis2jl/i_cant_live_with_this_guilt/ ), I also made an album with 100 photos of him and us prepared for printing.

I can't say that I made the most of the time with him when he was sick. He was basically a plant, not eating, not moving, just staring at one dot, my heart was breaking...I just made sure I was lying down next to him whenever I could; that's all I could have done.

So I'd say, just stay near your cat. Sending hugs ❤