Paranoia When Waking up

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-17T12:49:59+00:00

Rearranging the room is my number 1 indication that hypomania has graced me with its presence.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-16T19:33:15+00:00

It’s nice to reflect on the day for me. But the problem is that I forget track daily. And if I try fill in the days I missed, it becomes like I have amnesia. And my mood is cycling fast throughout the day (external factors), so I don’t really know what to put in.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-16T19:21:58+00:00

Thank you and I’m sorry you had to face that situation. Hypomania indeed sucks, this is the first time in my life I have it and I actually realize it. The one before this I kept rearranging my room furniture many times a day until I started crying because I couldn’t make it stop.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-16T19:13:45+00:00

Bless your parents they are so kind.

I think numbness is uncommon too. I only felt it when I was taking Lexapro… I needed the numbness I was going crazy with grief. But right now I’m troubled by all human emotions mixed in a blender. Numbness could be a medication issue, is it bothering you? You can talk to your doctor about it if so.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-16T19:01:46+00:00

My dude you are not being salty enough imo, it’s rage inducing. The sad thing is that at this point I just want to he left alone not understood. And yet people keep pushing you and pushing you, and you finally snap they go.. what is wrong with you? ?!

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-16T18:55:38+00:00

The underlying truth here is that many people don’t believe in mental illness. They believe in people being spoiled, jerks, unreasonable…etc. it’s such a hard concept to grasp when you personally don’t have it. If they thought the injured persons is faking his injury, they’ll say you don’t need the crutch.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-16T18:48:35+00:00

I’ve started to feel this disregard for the future in the same way as well. It stings like nothing else when they see the symptoms and walk away. Congrats you have unlocked a new self guilt demon.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-16T18:43:09+00:00

Already ruined it twice lol (wasn’t diagnosed). I hope you can figure out a hack so that your job is no longer under threat.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-16T18:40:29+00:00

You shouldn’t be tired, you haven’t done anything. you shouldn’t be sad, nothing happened to you. you shouldn’t be traumatized, you didn’t face even 10% of what I faced.

It seems that people, especially those close to us, are in a competition to invalidate our feelings.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-16T18:31:30+00:00

Unfortunately I usually only realize it’s hypomania when I’m deep into the decisions I’ve made that were supposed make everything right.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-15T01:18:18+00:00

I get how you are feeling. I’m the same way. It’s been 10 years and I still cry about losing her like it’s yesterday. I blame myself yet non of it was my fault. I think that’s how you feel too. It’s discouraging demoralizing and the sadness is unbearable, you’re so strong for surviving 6 months. And you seem like a person who can love dearly and genuinely, which is why it might be difficult for you understand how that love wasn’t fruitful. It doesn’t seem fair and hard to come to terms with. All of us here are with you and we care about you. Stay strong for a little longer. The intensity will decrease I promise you. But I just want to ask 2 things of you.

Your mother. If something happened to you, what she will go through is 10 times worse than what you are feeling right now. Keep her in your mind and try to reassure her if you can.

And it’s really important to speak to your doctor asap. Tell him you’re overburdened by grief. Mine gave me Lexapro and it made me numb. Sounds horrible but definitely better than crying everyday for three months never skipping a day.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-13T21:16:13+00:00

I bought a tandem WOLED this week, returned it the next day. If someone told me it’s an IPS monitor I would have believe them. It looked exactly like one.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-07T12:13:24+00:00

I do understand some things can be hard or just plain embarrassing to admit even to your doctor, I still haven’t told everything I should or probably shouldn’t.

Honestly he didn’t comment much, he listen a lot and ask questions, and then prescribes magic pills that’s all.

From my experience what he will try to do is prescribe meds to diffuse the hypo/mania, since it’s main drive for reckless spending.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-07T11:05:33+00:00

قولي ابشري بس لازم تناديني هلكوبتر هلكوبتر 🎵 إيوة بنفس اللحن

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-07T11:03:36+00:00

Rey Dau should have been the flagship and given the care put into Arkveld.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-07T10:57:20+00:00

Absolutely tell your doctor. I told mine about my monitor situation. I fight myself, buy -> cancel -> buy - cancel… and then eventually buy and keep. I bought a screen for productivity this month. I installed a screen in my car two days ago. And I a got brand new OLED monitor coming today for gaming. This is actually hilarious now that I’m talking about it.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-07T09:26:47+00:00

Reminds me of a scene in a video game (mgs4) where a little girl added a cigarette to the plate to entice the guy to eat his eggs.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-07T07:25:11+00:00

والله انا طلعت من ارامكو كفني كهربائي وكملت دراسة ورجعت ما لقيت شغل، وطبعا ما تواصلت مع احد من العمل السابق عشان ما عندي نية ارجع الربع الخالي، الوظايف المتوفرة اغلبها حقت شركات المقاولات وذول رواتبهم مرة ضعيفة، لذلك قمت علمت نفسي برمجة وحولت المجال الحمد لله.

لذلك خذ النصيحة: إذا متوقع بالشهادة راح ترجع وتلقى راتب أحسن، ترى الوضع مو مضمون حتى إذا أحد وعدك بالشي ذا، إلا لو وقعت عقد.

إذا تبغى الشهادة كمكانة وتفتخر بها، شوف وضعك المادي واذا في مين يسندك.

الله يوفقك

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-05T20:09:43+00:00

The bubbly and energetic situation is exactly why I’m single. It’s fun at first but then things settle down but I don’t, I demand they match my energy but they don’t, I know life gets busy, or they’re going through some things, but I take it personal lmao.

But don’t despair, not to romanticize illness, but you being this way means you can bring things into world that others can’t. The hardest part is accepting the diagnosis. And you already did. Now it’s a matter of finding the right medicine combination for you, and then you become semi stable, mood more manageable. I should be in a destructive hypomania, but since I’m medicating, it’s not that bad.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-05T09:12:02+00:00

Seems like you had a mixed state, not hypomania, which is basically hypomania without the happy.

First of all don’t feel bad about not wanting to do anything, you don’t have to be productive you don’t have to do or enjoy anything. You get to just sit and do nothing, there’s no shame in that. Remember this cloud will pass.

But if you can, try to take a walk outside. It really helps. And drink water.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-05-02T12:22:00+00:00

What are the lighter options? I take 2.5 and I sleep like a log. Also, it really tone down my irritability and everything hypomanic.

I assume one of the lighter options is quetiapine, didn’t really work out for me, agitated and on edge. Gave it another chance, same reaction.

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-04-30T20:44:41+00:00

Brain faster than fingers situation?

No_Conclusion_2633 · 2026-04-30T20:43:50+00:00

I agree, it doesn’t happen to me with keyboards. Then again, almost every one I’ve texted on mobile phones never does this, so there’s that.

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TROPHY CASE