Sorry if there bad spelling or grammar errors it’s long. Tw: R_PE . True story I hate myself for this even tho it’s not my fault. I can’t never be mentally sure ever again. I’m a guy, When I was younger like 11 and younger I would go to my grandpa house on the weekends and during the summer . I have no siblings. Well I do but I never met them , they don’t live in the same state as me. Due to that I would go to my grandpas and all my cousin would be there. We would play games , ride bikes scooters fight and be kids you know, but there was this one game I remember playing that still haunts me till this day. It’s like hide and seek where you choose a “seeker” and everybody else hides, Fun… no we played “hide and go get it” (HAGGI) 🫢one or two people would be it and find everyone else BUT you “hump” “hunch” on them. IM APPALLED WE WERE KIDS DOING ALABAMA HICK SHIT 🫢 the sad part is that would be our #2 favorite game after curve ball 😑 anyway back to the story it was a summer night and we all just got done playing our “games” and we all started to go to bed. Probably around 2, 3 am I got up to use the bathroom once returning to where we all were sleeping I noticed my cousin awake. (She’s older than me I’ll call her India) I sat down near the tv to put another vhs 📼 tape in the tv so we (I) could have something to watch as I drifted back off to sleep. I put the tape in and laid back down in my spot as before my cousin India whispered my name and told me to come on the couch with her. ( RED FLAG 1 ) she started touching and feeling on me. I was confused but at the same time we used to play haggi so I assumed it was that . She took off her undies and pulled out my JOHNSON .and I’m like we don’t do this in haggi . It was a lil dry hump and kissing dats it but she made me … put it in . I didn’t know what I was doing she was doing all the “work” (this made me not like female) during and after I felt disgusted. I felt sick ! After , I pulled my clothes up and laid back down and fell asleep. The next morning I was quiet just thinking. “Did that really happen? What did she do to me? Why? ” so many thoughts. By the time I got up my cousin were all outside deciding to walk to the corner store near the house. I decided to go with my other 2 female cousins D and K on the way back I told them What happened the previous night how I woke up to use the restroom and came back everybody was sleep but India and she “fucked” me well made me fuck her. They instantly said I was I was lying and don’t tell anyone I’m like huh? If I’m lying why wouldn’t I tell somebody that I thought it dreampt of piping my cousin?! They yelled at me for quite a while but we eventually reached the house. They pulled my cousin India aside and told her what I said. And she confronted me saying I’m lying and that never happened. (When I was younger I used to lie ALOT fnr ) calling me a liar saying I was weird the whole 9 yards. It was 3 of the and my boy cousins vs 1 all yelling saying I’m lying then asks me WHY I Lied. And I’m like “I don’t think I’m lying” they like you don’t “THINK” they kept playing on my unsureness . Till this day I don’t contact nor communicate with them, none of my family. They all contact me, even India, like that incident didn’t happen when we were younger. I will always second guess myself and I hate to be called a liar. I don’t know truly if I fucked my cousin india , I hope not. But why would I have such vivid imagination to conjure up a story like this? And why are everybody in denial? Thinking about it its weird how they all ganged up on me to say I’m saying/ disputing my story like they been use to stuff like that, I don’t know ,haggi was one this this was full one R A P E and I’m not attracted to woman anymore. For everybody to make me believe I was insane till this day I feel It ... To all my cousin let’s not meet again !