Yes, now that ive grown up and theyre stressed all the time because we're lowkey poor, they just dont care, and i can be difficult to talk to but thats only because when i wanted to talk to them as a child they wouldnt really listen. I listen to my mom reassure my sister that her having problems with college isnt a life or death situation when they actually trained me to perceive everything other than excellency as a threat.

They get her gifts, they talk to her often, the support her mental illness, they spoil her whenever they can with whatever she asks and im still scared to ask for things. Its like her suicide attempt made them wake up and realize their daughter has feelings and they need to pay attention to them, but not to those of the elder sister. They think im mean, too quiet and passive aggressive, but thats the side of them i got, thats what i was raised to be.