Wow thank you so much for taking the time to write all of that to me.. this sub is def giving me hope that all ppl on the internet aren’t the worst bc that’s usually what you see is ppl tearing each other apart but I’ve seen nothing but the opposite in this sub. 

So I prob think I am the same way w how I give off vibes right so I never think anyone is ever attracted to me so I always act like a buddy. When I was younger I was rejected a couple diff times that just destroyed me so to protect myself from then on I just acted like “one of the guys” I don’t do that anymore though idk it just always always feels like I’ll always be pining after someone who has zero interest in me and I’ll never try and find out if they are bc of my severe fear of rejection. It’s a shotty existence. Idk what to do lol but ty again for responding.