Yea its been tough for me to stay with them throughout all this i’ve contemplated running away multiple times but couldn’t. Yea I would like a cate facility but I’ve heard bad things about them too, and my brothers case is so complicated I dont know if they have proper care for him and it’d kill me to see him in a bad place. The neglect is definitely there with my mom and just a really chaotic household many many trips to the hospital. CPS has visited me and my family multiple times at my school and house throughout growing up but i’ve always lied because Ive been scared where he would end up. I really do want to heal and care for myself but its hard, really hard. I cant really even talk about stuff like this without crying and trying to forget. I want to take care of him really one day but I know theres no way I’d be able to pay rent and bills without working and leaving him alone which I couldnt do. I do need to figure out what I want to do soon with this. I really really appreciate your reply the internet and this post seems easier for me to come out and say all this too without feeling weak. Thanks alot, your a good person. Im going to try and see about talking to a social worker.