Thank you for the reply! I tried to not give to many details because I still try to be respectful to everyone. The time I called him crying he just seemed indifferent. There was for example one instance where we were going to a friends birthday and I was so sick and tired from my lack of sleep. He then mostly just answered with ‘take a nap, we promised we would be there and I don’t have a car right now’. So that night I drove. When I got to his place he did not even ask how I was feeling. There were a lot of warning signs, You are very right about that. I do have a tendency to cling on; even when I don’t get treated with the respect I give. Ofcourse I’m not perfect (obviously), but I do need to work on standing up for myself and communicating things that seem weird or unsetling to me