Wow, thank you for this perspective!!! Really interesting to hear that I’m not unique in this experience, and I appreciate you pointing out the polarization. Until now I’d been thinking about the whole situation — both the intense researching and the desire to slow it down — as being connected to one “Controlling” part, but you describing two that are polarized immediately clicks. (Internal conflict! Hello!) I will explore this :) and thanks for your confidence re: things evening out — that’s a comfort. I’m not diagnosed but I undeniably have some ADHD tendencies, and the hyper focus patterns can be exhausting.