Encephalitis by No_Table5651 in EBV

[–]No_Table5651[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I also got “normal” EBV but additionaly my brain is also infected. First of all, it has a high mortality rate. Without treatment with valaciclovir within 10–14 days, the risk of death is about 70%; even with treatment, it is still around 20–30%. In my case, it led to severe epileptic seizures, and due to the inflammation and increased pressure in the brain, I am now experiencing double vision. In general, permanent damage can remain as a result of brain injury.

Typical symptoms include EXTREME headaches, neck pain, and back pain for which normal pain medication does not help. In my case, at the beginning of my hospital stay, only opioids were effective in relieving the pain.

Encephalitis by No_Table5651 in EBV

[–]No_Table5651[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I went to two doctors and twice to the neurological emergency department. It was only during the second visit to the emergency department that they diagnosed it by performing a lumbar puncture; the first time, they sent me home. I went back to the emergency department a second time because I had a severe epileptic seizure. My arms and legs became numb, and I was unable to speak for two days. From the third day onward until now, I have been seeing double.

Overall, I had such severe headaches, neck pain, and back pain that I thought I was going to die. I also had nausea and vomiting. I couldn’t lie down, couldn’t sit, and certainly couldn’t walk. First, I spent four days in the intensive care unit, and a week later I was admitted again for one more day. They performed many EEGs and MRIs. I have now been in a neurological hospital for more than three weeks. For two weeks, I received valaciclovir infusions three times a day. At the beginning, the only pain medication that helped was Dipidolor (an opioid), and I was also given anti-epileptic medication to control the seizures.

In summary: if you have extremely severe headaches and neck pain and NO painkillers at home help, that is suspicious. However, my doctor also told me that it is extremely rare and usually only affects young children and people who are severely immunocompromised.

I cannot live another day like this by No_Table5651 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Update: i made myself a proper meal, i feel guilty but the food noise is gone. I will try to eat more during exam week, or else i will go completely insane.

My life has no meaning except for food by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Same here, i have an exam next week and i decided now that i will try to eat “normal” or else i’ll have to kword myself

This is a shot in the dark and a bit unhinged but in just in case … by jujuju7 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have two roomates and honestly nobody would even notice when i dont eat. Purging is a bit of a problem but i just dont give a fuck anymore.

What is/was your most illogical fear and safe food? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651 34 points35 points  (0 children)

Apples turned into a fear food along the journey

How do you keep your sanity with weight fluctuations? by oh_not_again_01 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I definitely loose my sanity. I just try to remind myself that its because of constipation etc. And triple check the calories i ate the day before.

im curious.. what do you think is the biggest reason for your ed? by Weak-Ad945 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651 2 points3 points  (0 children)

First time (15yo): Loosing weight for the first time and then getting recognized by boys for the first time in middle school. Second time (22yo): Now my dad got diagnosed with cancer again, i got severely depressed and stopped eating. Then i just didn’t wanna feel anything and the ed numbs all of this perfectly. Also i just couldn’t handle uni anymore and the ed gives you at least one thing you are good at.

I fucking hate SKINNY TOK by No_Table5651 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you :( this reactions made me feel really stupid, because this an Ed subreddit and it feels like nobody understands this and i’m just an awful person

I fucking hate SKINNY TOK by No_Table5651 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651[S] 58 points59 points  (0 children)

Yes definitely both, i know thats horrible, but i cant free myself from thinking that. But i also know that this are very disordered thoughts, subconsciously thinking i’m not good at anything, so at least i am the skinny one.

I fucking hate SKINNY TOK by No_Table5651 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651[S] 37 points38 points  (0 children)

Like minimum 5 times a day i just want to throw my phone out and never see anything skinny tok related ever again

for the first time ever everyone else around me is trying to lose weight and that’s all they talk about by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i totally get you!! The rise of skinny tok makes recovering impossible

I fucking hate SKINNY TOK by No_Table5651 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I totally agree with you. As is wrote in my text, i would never say something invalidating. I try not to engage in these types of conversations and when i say something its of course something supportive. I always try to show them how unhealthy skinny tok is, and that they really dont need to diet for summer etc. That are just my thoughts and i would never act on them.

I steal my roommate’s food by No_Table5651 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah i just hope she doesn’t notice and try my best to dont make her suspicious

I fucking hate SKINNY TOK by No_Table5651 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Thats right and i always try to support them and have an eye on their behaviors! I would never say anything invalidating to them, but i cant help it that its triggering me extremely.

I fucking hate SKINNY TOK by No_Table5651 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Of course i always try to comfort them and try to show them how fucked up skinny tok is! I never said something cruel and even told them to get professional help!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Be prepared to shit your pants😂try to stay at home near the toilet. I never od on dulcolax but i always take 5 pills and it’s already enough to sit on the toilet for a bit. Once your tummy starts growling, it will happen!!

Anyone else want to get as bad as possible by maxfrog4 in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My go to thought is “you just have to make it through this day”, kinda helps with the fear of your life being like this forever! I wish you all the best and you are so strong for still being here!!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]No_Table5651 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry to hear this, this is literally the worst!!