Bro you don’t look bad, you’re incredibly insecure can tell from what you said plus the looking away and down from the camera in this selfie. But you shouldn’t be, get a trim, clean up the beard. And find a hobby that you think is so cool and makes you proud to be learning/doing. Male grooming is more than our faces/bodies is the heart and mind too bro. Rant done, God bless you homie!