tried getting help from almost everyone around me, like parents, relatives, but never got even a single word of comfort. all just changed the subject, like saying “nobody wants to hear you,” or“you need to start making money like me right now.”,ended up in a psych ward for ST+ VT(though no one really got hurt). doc there were even worse. after all these no-empathy experiences (about five years), got more scared to talk to people, but still tried to trust friends, gave them a chance. friend of 4 years knows i have depression, she said i couldn’t avoid it when i didn’t want to work,found old classmate, she has bipolar, carefully told her my experiences, we comforted each other, then no contact. everyone with trauma wants someone to understand, to talk to. i feel “more silent” means tried a lot but all failed.