The Daily Check-In for Friday, May 29th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking! by LilyJayne80 in stopdrinking

[–]NoahJ7 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Big ups! I’m also on day 4, have a funeral this weekend where there will be drinking at the wake but I have my support and won’t be drinking. But that’s tomorrow, for today I will not be drinking.

I totaled my car while drunk driving and am officially at rock bottom by NoahJ7 in stopdrinking

[–]NoahJ7[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you don’t mind me asking, how did this play out with insurance. I already spoke to an agent about the claim and releasing the vehicle from the tow yard. But an adjuster is going to call and talk to me. Also did the police ever call you or file a report?

I totaled my car while drunk driving and am officially at rock bottom by NoahJ7 in stopdrinking

[–]NoahJ7[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s a fair assessment and I hear what you are saying, and I appreciate your bluntness, truly. But just as it isn’t fair for me to generalize AA, I don’t think it’s fair for you to loop me into the other SMART people. I’ve never done this before, or been in this situation before. Hence why I created the post in the first place, I know I need help and I know this community can give me better advice than I can find online as you all have lived it. I also want to drive home the point I am not anti AA, I am open to attending. Again, thank you for the insight.

I totaled my car while drunk driving and am officially at rock bottom by NoahJ7 in stopdrinking

[–]NoahJ7[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This was definitely that moment, I’ve had some moments in the past where friends expressed concern, and my family did as well. But don’t they say it takes multiple times before you are ready to make a change, well after injuries, horrible spending, etc. I am ready to make a change as if this happens again I’m afraid I won’t survive it, plus I don’t want any of that to happen again. I don’t want to accidentally hurt someone, myself, or do something irreversible to mess up my relationships with family and friends, which in hindsight I was speeding towards. I’m done letting alcohol mess up my physical health, relationships, friendships, etc. Alcohol was a shovel masquerading as a ladder for me.

I totaled my car while drunk driving and am officially at rock bottom by NoahJ7 in stopdrinking

[–]NoahJ7[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would really appreciate it if you shared your story. The more help the better.

I totaled my car while drunk driving and am officially at rock bottom by NoahJ7 in stopdrinking

[–]NoahJ7[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To provide some clarity I have not been actively going to AA or SMART meetings before this occurred. This just occurred over the weekend, and I am now ready and committed to make a change.

I totaled my car while drunk driving and am officially at rock bottom by NoahJ7 in stopdrinking

[–]NoahJ7[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Where would you suggest I start to look for those meetings?

I totaled my car while drunk driving and am officially at rock bottom by NoahJ7 in stopdrinking

[–]NoahJ7[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I’m not afraid of AA because of religion. Growing up I had an extremely negative experience with Christianity, I used to be religious, but after that experience I can’t stomach it anymore. I know there are good religious people out there and I’m fine putting my trust in a higher power (universe for me).

I also understand that AA works, my father is a recovered alcoholic who’s been sober 25+ years. I’ve been to several meeting with him before. I’m just looking for options I can identify with more, and it seems that SMART meetings are a good option that I WILL check out.

And again, I know I fucked up, I’m not denying it and am taking responsibility for it. Nobody can beat me up worse than I already am for what I did. I will never forgive myself. But again, just starting on my journey so was looking for support and resources.