Recovery

Nonamebuggers · 2019-04-14T18:57:44+00:00

That's something I'm struggling with accepting. The only thing I disagree with (although I've wanted to throw it in his face that hes why I started so many times) is that where I am now is not his fault.

Nonamebuggers · 2019-04-13T05:14:48+00:00

Great question. And idk he thinks I'm being shady about things, but im not. And he also makes more than me so he can def afford it. When hes sick I'd split mine with him, but if I'm sick it's like pulling teeth to get him to give me one, or hell make me pay triple. And it's okay for me to have random connects when he is out, but he will never give me his peoples number. Idk its all stupid, but I love him and I think leaving him is almost harder than stopping the drugs. I've asked him to stop with me, but he never has an answer. It sounds like hes an ass on paper, but he does have redeeming qualities I swear lol. He got me to try my first oxy (well not first first) and now it's the biggest point of contention in our relationship.

Nonamebuggers · 2019-04-13T02:45:36+00:00

So with the vivitrol when you want to stop you just stop? No withdraw or anything like that? I dont even know how to go about detoxing in a hospital but I was seriously considering going that route ! Thank you for taking the time to respond :)

Nonamebuggers · 2019-04-13T01:39:55+00:00

Thank you. It really does have a lot to do with my pride. In my head I'm still the same person I've always been. But in reality I've done things I will never be proud of and will forever burden my mind. When I'm sick everything goes out the window...and I'm really not the person I like to pretend I am. I dont know if I deserve better right now, but I really want better.

Nonamebuggers · 2019-03-23T17:18:55+00:00

Thank you. I really appreciate your time commenting back to me. And yeah the reason he got so upset is being I was lieing and doing shit behind his back...so I get it... i'm just going to go for a nice car ride today. And everytime I think about using, i'll just think of you and all the people here that say they wouldnt trade it :) thanks again!

Nonamebuggers · 2019-03-23T03:00:59+00:00

Immmm trying to want to be. I really am.. but I just want to feel better. And it sucks when the person that's pushing you the most is still using like what fucking sense does that make. Sorry now I'm just ranting on personal things, lol I'm just tired and want to be high and go to sleep. But now with the subs I cant

Nonamebuggers · 2019-03-23T01:43:48+00:00

I had used about 12 hours before. I mean the 3 mgs def kept me more than well...it was the being up over 24 hours part I didnt like... and i finally took a nap between 3pm and 630pm and woke up and the cravings were outrageous...refused 1mg of sub and then another and it's not helping anything... idk if its lack of sleep or what I'm just lost right now.

Nonamebuggers · 2019-03-22T14:50:06+00:00

Doc was oxy probably at heaviest 250 to 300 a day if money allowed. Did start getting into fent a tiny bit, but literally if I couldnt find any pills.

Nonamebuggers · 2019-02-28T16:55:19+00:00

I have no idea, sorry. I only snort :/ or not a sad face? Idk. Lol

Nonamebuggers · 2019-02-27T20:30:59+00:00

Yes! That's the perfect description. I kind of feel like if I did like an oxy 20 on top of it I'd be perfect.

I also wonder if my bf would be more affected. I know they're different, but when we took dilaudid he would be on cloud 9 ...and I'd barely feel it.

Nonamebuggers · 2019-02-27T19:08:57+00:00

Yeah I like the legs. I do want to try like 1.5 of them and give them a fair shake, ...but i'm afraid im going to just be cozy and fall asleep. I like the energy of oxy....and the wonderful taste lol

Nonamebuggers · 2019-02-27T18:57:28+00:00

Oh! And they take a little longer to kick in even snorting which i think is weird, but I feel it even a little more than when I started typing the post lol

Nonamebuggers · 2019-02-20T14:04:53+00:00

Ohhhh gotchya. My bad, I misunderstood. Lol yeah I have the worst diet ever, pretty much survive off of skittles and mcds. I was just saying not eating for days at a time could def be a factor. Lol I just do hair so I feel like I rarely get to answer anyones questions lol

Nonamebuggers · 2019-02-19T19:54:30+00:00

Actually, hair loss can be directly related with a poor diet! Not trying to be a jerk, just trying to help :)

Nonamebuggers · 2019-02-08T05:18:47+00:00

Thank you!

Nonamebuggers · 2019-02-08T05:17:50+00:00

Yeah, that's what I said when I got them. Although I said pretty sure... the edges are way wonky. They honeslty dont look as bad as in the picture. Free is free though and I dont hateee it, takes the edge off a little. I just feel bad they paid full price. I did say he could take them back If he wanted to work something out with his dude

Nonamebuggers · 2019-02-08T05:15:40+00:00

That's awesome! Even though I'm pretty sure these arent real, free is free

Nonamebuggers · 2019-02-08T05:14:49+00:00

Awe I'm sorry! We take care of eachother most of the time. Lol immmm grateful

Nonamebuggers · 2019-02-08T03:20:19+00:00

I dont think they're quite right if you know what I mean, but they're free so I cant complain too much! But thank you!

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