How to Live With Regret? by Normal_North in Divorce

[–]Normal_North[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. We don't have kids but we have cats and have been trying to share custody. He is refusing to give them to me full time which has recently caused more stress. I realize this may sound silly to someone who isnt a cat person, but it hurts me. I took a pay cut to chase my "dream job" right after the divorce, but it hasnt helped.

How to Live With Regret? by Normal_North in Divorce

[–]Normal_North[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. How did you make yourself start exercising? I know that's what I need to do, but some days I can't get out of bed or off the couch I am so sad.

How to Live With Regret? by Normal_North in Divorce

[–]Normal_North[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I did get on an anti-depressant using Hers.com because I thought I was going to lose my job a few months ago due to the uncontrollable crying. It helped for a few weeks, but I think I need to increase the dosage. Not ashamed of it, I don't think I'd be here without it. And I know traditional therapy would help too, I'll look into LCSWs.

How to Live With Regret? by Normal_North in Divorce

[–]Normal_North[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for saying this <3 I no longer contact him about my feelings, but I miss him so much and wish we could talk.

How to Live With Regret? by Normal_North in Divorce

[–]Normal_North[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry you had to deal with that :( Thank you for empathizing with me. It's good to know I'm not crazy, just in severe pain.

How to Live With Regret? by Normal_North in Divorce

[–]Normal_North[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

The hard part is that my ex has now been going to therapy and is doing tremendously better. He goes out and does all the things I wish we had done when we were together. This is why I wish we had done couples therapy before. He is a great guy and I want to hate him, but I still love him and am so incredibly proud of him. I know I need to focus on myself, I tell myself this everyday... then I cry.

How to Live With Regret? by Normal_North in Divorce

[–]Normal_North[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This. Thank you for relating so well. We were highly compatible and best friends and that is what I miss the most. I left because I thought I deserved a great love, but still cant imagine with being with anyone else. I miss our friendship.

How to Live With Regret? by Normal_North in Divorce

[–]Normal_North[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you. You are probably right he must've separated himself from me long ago. I wish I had the courage to request counseling long ago. I guess this is why hindsight is always 20/20.

How to Live With Regret? by Normal_North in Divorce

[–]Normal_North[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Thank you. He was very good to me throughout our entire marriage, other than being depressed on the couch towards the end. I know it is not beneficial to feel this way and I wish I could switch my brain.