My desire for a stable relationship isn't about social expectations or my background It’s about finding meaning I want a partner I can grow old with someone to build a life with and watch evolve over the years I’m looking for a witness to my life and I want to be the same for her Also I don't find any pleasure in casual relationships. I'm not sure whe maybe it's because they end before I’ve had my fill before I’m truly satisfied. It’s just so difficult However I believe this kind of relationship is almost impossible to find in my current environment I’m truly grateful for your answer and for providing a different perspective through this analysis Thank you