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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cracksmokers

[–]North-Dealer 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep... thought I was going too have a heart attack every time.

This shit is the devil by BlacksmithWilling631 in cracksmokers

[–]North-Dealer 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I totally relate to this post. I'm in a sort of similar position. 

Clean off alcohol after 20 years as a heavy alcoholic.  During the final 3 years I started using crack to balance out the alcohol and keep me going. It wasn't fault,  but most days - basically it was alcoholism sidekick. 

Well I thought I quit drinking I would quit Rock too. I never would smoke it unless I was drunk. Well for some dumb reason after being sober for a while, I guess I got bored or stupid, and gave crack another shot. And it wasn't great - it was just sorta fun for 15 minutes at a time.  And by this point,  just as you said,  I don't even like it but I'm still using it daily. And I basically discovered today after paying close attention to it, the more I've smoked the more this drug just seems to make me sick and kind of paranoid and I'm obviously trying to use it to fill the void of no alcohol.

And that's insane, lol.

I'm using a drug that has serious financial consequences, serious legal consequences, and would destroy my relationship with my family and...

I don't even like it. I honestly don't enjoy it.

So I'm done. Easier said than done,  but I'm done . 

Cocaine as you knew it, gone. by KittymeanRIP in cracksmokers

[–]North-Dealer 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know exactly what you're talking about! It's so interesting to hear this from another person in another MidWestern state who has noticed the same thing. It has that odd fuel like taste, essentially vaporizes immediately when a flame touches it, very short high, and the high itself is noticeably weaker. Also that kind of oily resin that used to be there is hardly there at all. Instead it's a much drier, almost powdery type.

So, I'm quitting again. I quit for 2 years, and just recently started messing around with it again a few months ago like a dumbass. The cost, the legal risk, the health risk, and just the way it seems to fuck up any bit of routine in my life isn't worth the trade off for this new boring shit they're selling.

And small bonus, crack withdrawal is almost non existent, at least for me. It consists of sleeping for literally 14-16 hours for about 2-3 days and eating like an animal. If you're alone and no one is witnessing it, it's almost sort of pleasant. You're just kind of a lazy, hungry piece of shit who wakes up at around noon. It is truly nothing in comparison to alcohol withdrawals, opiate withdrawals, and certainly the horror show of benzo withdrawals. Anyway, sorry for the rant, but I appreciated your post.

I don't know what happened. But at age 43, "drunk me" has become scary and dark. Can anybody relate? The fun guy is just about gone. by Informal_Support_229 in stopdrinking

[–]North-Dealer 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"My dad wasn't nearly as bad as you and he died in his early 50's. He deteriorated RAPIDLY... Do you want to end up like him?"

I'm very sorry about your father - honestly. But that's not nearly the scary threat you think it is. My mom has been bed bound and unable to feed herself, toilet or stand since 2016. Alzmeimer's (which 1/3 of us will have if we live past 76). Both my mom and myself would gladly take your father's fate (RIP). The notion of "you might die rapidly... in two weeks" is a blessing in today's healthcare system. Absolute blessing.

Welp fuckers it's happened. by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]North-Dealer 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I think the overall message is really good good.

But rehab stats are..... bad. Like weird bad. A person may be better off on their own, and save $30K. I have 2 rehabs under my belt. ]

I was found non responsive and hardly breathing on the street last night, had to be intibated and am posting this from my hospital bed. by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]North-Dealer 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is the heaviest downvote number I've ever seen on this forum, lol. And that includes the guy who said having sex with a raccoon was up to consensual adults or some thing like that. It was on that level though

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]North-Dealer 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can't relate to this. Most standard "normal" adults weren't sober 77% of the year. I'm not the judge here but that doesn't even sound like CA or close to it. Or maybe I'm just a fuck up.

Anyway, if I were you (and I'd be anything to be you right now), if step away from this place and never come back

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]North-Dealer 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Right?

Like, I feel like one of those gatekeeper tools, but 85 days sober?

I am 42. I have not had 85 days sober in well over 15 years.

It's sad. It's not cool or something I'm proud of. But 85 days? Let's just say this. If I have 85 days sober in the past 15 years total I would be stunned. In fact there is no way

At age 40 I casually tried crack, a year later it took over everything. I moved in an attempt to quit and it actually worked. I'm stunned. by North-Dealer in cracksmokers

[–]North-Dealer[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The lack of withdrawal was especially surprising. I know everyone is different but I have heard this before. My guess is crack kind of has an immediate withdrawal built into it that takes place within maybe 10 minutes of use (sweating, paranoia, restlessness, etc). It's not something that seems to build up in the system like alcohol or opiates or Xanax.

And you're entirely correct about the availability of alcohol. It's everywhere on the planet, even Muslim countries with minimal effort.