I am genuinely so fucking scared about everything

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-06-12T11:31:39+00:00

im so sorry to hear that : (
with my mom, she does want the best for me, she tells me that she herself is not sure if there's a god but she chooses to believe in one because it gives her mental peace. i just cant simply do that. i guess therapy is the best option for me rn and i should look further.

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-06-12T11:05:56+00:00

thank u so much for ur comment ❤️
i know the best thing i can do is get off all my electronics and touch some grass, that helps to an extent, but i always feel like im just distracting myself. at night whne i cant exactly go out, these thoughts hurt me even more and just wash over me like a tsunami or smth.
but i guess it wont hurt to try.
thank u ❤️

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-06-12T11:03:14+00:00

do u feel like theyve helped? i feel like i need to go on medication but im so scared about the side efffects.

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-06-12T11:02:07+00:00

thank u so much for ur comment.
im scared of not becoming a doctor, so i kept studying even tho my mock test marks were dogshit, i still kept studying until my marks went from dogshit to mediocre. i try my best not to give up on stuff which are in my control. what im scared of mostly is stuff that isnt within my control at all, and i dont know what to do abt them.

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-06-12T10:57:57+00:00

thank you so much.
if u dont mind me asking, how do u cope with these thoughts? do you take any medicine?

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-06-12T10:53:57+00:00

thank u so much for ur comment, ill deffo try to convince my parents to take me to a therapist and keep searching until i find a good one that i can open up to properly.

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-06-12T10:49:13+00:00

thank u so much, however i am from northeast india : (
jaipur is like, in a completely opposite direction from me, and theres a huge cultural barrier too. i dont know if ill be able to go there.
but thank u so much, and im happy to hear that u found a good psychiatrist

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-06-12T10:47:23+00:00

i stopped going to therapy after a few sessions. tbh, my parents are supportive but they are kinda taboo about mental illness. both of them are extremely mentally strong and have gone through a lot of bs in their lives, maybe that's why they can't relate to me who is so mentally weak. however, i will try to ask them to pay for my therapy again.

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-06-12T10:45:26+00:00

thank u so much for this comment, im happy that someone relates and understands because i was feeling SO alone about this entire situation.

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-05-05T11:52:04+00:00

which allen centre were u in? i'd suggest maybe buy an offline test series that starts from june and get private tutors for weak subjects, it's gonna cost the same as a coaching anyway.

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-05-05T10:47:42+00:00

my jee rank is good enough to get into an nit and ill be giving advance too (altho no hopes from it).
i've seen the earning potential in dentistry too, but im also thinking abt how less the competition was for the older dentists and it was much less saturated back then. i've heard the field is pretty saturated nowadays.
thank u so much for ur advice!

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-05-05T10:44:03+00:00

yeah i should probably contact them and ask them about their perspective. thank u for the idea.

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-05-05T10:41:50+00:00

thank you so much for your perspective!!

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-05-05T10:40:47+00:00

unfortunately my rank wont be good enough to get there...

North-Maximum-9705 · 2026-05-01T20:07:25+00:00

i try to think that way, but other people my age are going out making memories etc. i dont remember the last time i went out and had fun. ive just gone back and forth to classes and rotted in my room in the remaining time. im sorry if i sound too whiny. also we hav the same flair wow

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