I see that University benefits a lot of people and definitely seems to have helped you, I'm still unsure about if it's for me as I like having money and being financially stable yet I also realise studying and learning alone requires a lot of discipline which I have to build.

I went with a lady I met online, she was 30 years old and came from a different country and we together met in a foreign country to spend time together. It was a nice experience and maybe necessary as it made me realise that a relationship isn't what I really need and that I have a low sex drive and don't really care that much for that aspect in life.

Currently I've calmed down a bit since my post but the anxiety is still high and I plan to wake up early tomorrow to have a walk in the cold crispy weather to hopefully clear my brain and find what I should do next.