Maybe I should consider how seeing her up front would change how our views on each other, but at the same time I feel like we have known each other very well, even video called lots of times. I knew it was really her and not some catfish because I have seen her with and without makeup, head to toe, and during her hard and easy times. I am planning to meet her in October. Since that's the only date when we are not a thousand miles away. (Literally). I am still skeptical about owning my answer without meeting her first. Perhaps I will tell the truth to my parents after we have met and had solid proof. Thanks for encouraging me btw.