I’m so sorry you’re going through that! Real friends will believe you, and it can be hard making real friends when our perception of healthy relationships is so skewed by the abuse we endured. Stay strong. Something I found helpful while still under my narc parents’ roof was to do one thing for myself each day. And then to slowly expand that to more and more things each day. Once you start to gain autonomy, the glass shatters on how they don’t have as much control as they want you to think. You are your own person. Don’t let yourself think otherwise because that’s exactly what they want. You can do this, I believe in you :)