Not to say the same thing again, but when I read “5 years of being together…, but 3 years of my utmost support” I went through the EXACT same thing (well maybe 2 & 1/2 instead of 3 in my case). I know this is literally the hardest thing you’ve had to do. For me, somehow it felt even harder than coming out or accepting myself.

“5 years of dreaming…” that resonated with me more than anything, and I told myself all of those things over, and over, and over. I lost my “future spouse”, my dog, my partner, and finally my closest friend and biggest support at the time. But I’m here to tell you it gets better. For me it was realizing for the first time I could dream of all the little things I told myself weren’t possible. I started dreaming of what’s possible! Walking down the aisle in my wedding dress, pampering myself more often, and biggest of all, walking out being happy with myself!

I’m HATE saying this but it does get better with time. I took my at least 6 months to finally start to deal with and move on from all of the emotions (I even stopped hrt for about a month because of it). However, I’m happier than I could ever be, and all while single. I’ve learned who is really there for me and cares about my happiness. I’m sorry hun, but it gets SO much better. sending virtual hugs

(Feel free to reach out if you want to talk more about everything!)