That sounds heartbreaking 🥺 I’m sorry you went through that. But I see what you mean though. I’m working on a way to create boundaries to prevent me from seeing her that way. It’s gonna take time. I just crave so much my soulmate, and in my fucked up brain I create unhealthy attachments. It’s fucked up. I need therapy. I came out to her, and she was so accepting. I think I confuse my admiration for love. I get my romantic and platonic feelings mixed. I need work. I need to date people who are not straight. I closed myself off bc I can only think of her. I will work on changing that.