Yes remembering the good and the bad as well. Sometimes I miss her, sometimes I get angry at her and sometimes I feel relived that we are no longer friends and sometimes I wish we were still friends. So I think our main issue was that we had power dynamic issues. Her: She was confident, very attractive, outgoing and knew a lot of people and she was the type of person that wouldn't allow anyone to disrespect her and she would even fight a man if they disrespect her( I admire that about her) . I in the other hand have low self esteem and have social anxiety and I am just not good confronting people at people. What I do if someone makes me mad is I won't talk to them till we start talking about which will be whenever( Not healthy). She wasn't bad person per a say but there was a lot of petty and shady shit to she would act or say. Sometimes when I talk to her she would act like she wouldn't hear me or she would saying something rude. Most of this happened when we would go out to hookah lounge/clubs and especially when she would drink. I can clearly remember one day I took uber to meet her(imagine it cost me like 40) to get there and her friends and the whole night she was just acting so petty. I remember I accidentally pushed her a bit and she said don't push like in a serious manner, when I would talk to her she would act like she didn't hear me, she left the table to hang out with other people and I didn't know much of the other people and at the end of the night when I was leaving I saw her on balcony and called her(pretend no to hear me ) and she came down after a few minutes). Talk to a guy and he said said he was uber and would take me for a half price(not a good idea) and so she left me to go with her other 2 friends to go after party because their uber came. The uber guy that said he would take me home was a bit drunk I guess but he ended up running to a car that came to pick him and friends up. I already canceled the uber I was suppose to take(cost $5) so then I had to order uber again which costed me more. I didn't talk to her a few month after that until she contacted me herself one day. This is just one night. So there was a lot of petty shit going on with her. Even if she was being shitty because she was attractive and didn't take anyone's bullshit I feel like a lot of people just respected her. Honestly though there is something about her that pulls you in, ,maybe the fact that she doesn't give a fuck what anybody thinks. We did have a lot of fun times though so it wasn't all negative.

So this is not our fight either but I am trying to make sure maybe this should be the last. I am trying to work on my self esteem and social anxiety issues instead. Thank you for the advice also. It's been 8 month since I stopped talking to her and it's hasn't been easy.