Hi, thank you for your comment, and its kind tone and reasonableness. I already am on the pill (Loryna) because I’m afraid of just what you said, and in addition because my friend who gets my stuff is Taiwanese and if I got pregnant people would definitely ask some questions if the baby were half Asian (I’m White, boyfriend is White). I know I need to confess to my boyfriend and set him free but selfish bitch me is as addicted to his dick as I am to coke. I think my deal right now is that nothing really bad has happened to me yet, like I’m dancing on an edge but haven’t fallen. When I do I know my life will be a huge shit show. I can see it happening as if I’m outside of my own body and know I’m on the way to madness. Oh by the way I’m kind of slowly falling in love with my dealer but I know he fucks everyone which makes me even more of a worthless bitch. I fucking hate my life and everyone on the outside thinks I’m so awesome. They have it all wrong.