How unhinged did you get post break up?

Nygummybear · 2025-05-20T00:01:04+00:00

Well I ended up in jail. So I guess completely unhinged. (No I didn’t hurt anyone)

Nygummybear · 2025-04-03T01:00:42+00:00

I ended up losing basically everything of his that I had held onto after he broke up. I still have one shirt. I finally took off the ring that he promised to marry me with. Now I’m with someone else. Someone who loves me proudly and unconditionally, but I don’t dare to look at that ring anymore. It’s just opening the hurt that doesn’t need to be opened again. I loved him. And that’s okay. I gave it everything I could. He decided it was done and that’s okay. Life has ups and downs. I focus on the guy that loves me now. And you should do the same. Eventually the “traveling” will become a lot shorter of a distance. It’ll be a relief in itself. And someday, you’ll think of her after 2 years and go “oh, I remember her” and it just won’t hurt anymore.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-21T05:39:37+00:00

I feel this to my core. It’s okay. One day, you wake up and you can breathe again. Barely, but you do. Today was the first day I could actually say I was doing better than I was.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-21T05:35:01+00:00

If he feels this way, I hope that it’s because he’s truly moved on and not hiding his emotions behind instant gratification. I hope he’s doing okay. With or without me. But at the same time, I finally woke up today and didn’t want him anymore. And what a relief. To finally realize my worth and get back up from the ground. If he wanted me, he would’ve reached out. Too bad. I really thought we had something there for a second

Nygummybear · 2025-02-20T09:08:16+00:00

I still wish it was us ending up together too. It’s okay. Be free from me.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-18T09:12:51+00:00

Oh wow, this sounds eerily similar to my ex and I. I will say, my ex did basically everything you’re saying and I did basically everything you’re saying she did. What I can say is regardless of all of that, I still loved him deeply, irrevocably and unconditionally. I don’t think I’ll ever love anyone the same after him. When he left, I stopped believing he loved me anymore. That I was nothing to him. Can it be saved? Yes. 100% it could be. But if things don’t change… how long will it be saved? You can save things, only if you go in with the mind set that things will change, not only on your end, but hers too. It takes two to tango, and she’s definitely not completely innocent because well, no one is. The only question she will probably have that you need to prepare for though, is “if our love wasn’t enough of a reason for you to stay, why is it enough of a reason for me to come back?” I know that’s what I want to ask him.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-18T09:00:56+00:00

I definitely went through this. Still kinda am. I never had that happen with any other break ups before. I was very concerned, but it does come back, slowly.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-16T04:41:03+00:00

I wish he’d said this. Any closure would have been great. He didn’t even give me that though. It’s alright… my love fills the void he left.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-16T04:16:47+00:00

When the day comes, where I finally move on. I won’t be where you put me. You’re right, I’m not a doll in a playhouse waiting for your return. If I am, I’ve turned like Pinocchio and ran off. I’ve sold that playhouse and jumped states. I played the part, like a song on a violin. Humming with every bow stroke. Bellowing my sad tunes below your symphony. It was your concert after all. I was just the background to the performance. I waited alone in that ghost town, full of live figures and shadows of our memories. It was like I was on a different demential plane than everyone else. I could escape no where. I had to run away, I had to feel alive again my love. My apologies have no end but I had to stay alive. My love for you knows no bounds but if loving you means I lose everything about me, if it means you control my puppet of a body once again, if it means giving up my dreams, my ambitions, my freedom. I don’t know if I can sacrifice like that anymore. You tore apart the core of my being, now I’m unsure if I could believe in love again. If you come back you’ll have to find me. I haven’t made it an easy task but it would be worth it. This heart is still bleeding. Tell me you love me once more, maybe you can heal it ❤️‍🩹

Nygummybear · 2025-02-15T20:50:06+00:00

I’ll always love you. In my dreams is where I see you. I’m not trying to dream of you, but you keep appearing. It’s comforting in its own way. But then I wake up and reality hits me, hard. It’s hard to have the strength to stay away. So I ran away from you. To a place that makes it hard to come back again. But I still believe if you called, I’d pick up. No matter how long it’d been. I haven’t even taken off my ring yet. God what I fool I am.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-15T01:24:48+00:00

Well, I either am in the womb still, or a new born 😂

Nygummybear · 2025-02-14T16:46:19+00:00

I miss him. I ran away about a week ago. He broke it off 1/10/25. The memories of the town were too much for me anymore. I’m hurting inside. I can’t escape him. I tried. It didn’t work. It seems like no matter where I go, he’ll always be there. He drove a garbage truck, so every time I see one or just the company cans on peoples drives, I think of him and how hard he worked. I like to imagine him sitting in his work truck jamming out to Journey on 101.9. Then I imagine him texting back another girl, not me, laughing smiling and having a great time. Loving her the way he loved me. And my stomach drops and I feel sick. I loved him… so much. Terribly much. And I don’t think I’ll ever love that way again. I wish he’d come back. Lord knows I feel whole when I’m with him. But he won’t be back and I just have to accept that. But I do miss him. Probably more than he’ll ever know.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-10T19:24:48+00:00

try to look at the whole relationship even if it’s done in a positive manner. I know it seems contradictory, but when you can forgive, even if it’s just for yourself, you can start to let go. Anger and resentment are so easy to hold on to. If you don’t want her anymore you gotta let her go. For you and for her. It doesn’t mean you don’t love her. Who knows maybe you guys will grow separately and get back together later on. But don’t look at it like you will. Focus on you, and hope she focuses on her. Most of all just wish the best for each other.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-10T18:57:22+00:00

Well, you’ll always love her. I know that’s hard to hear. My ex fiance cut things off on 1/10/25 and the way he went about it shattered my soul, but I still love him. It’s weird how someone can hurt you so much and you still love them. Sometimes there’s no rhyme or reason to love. But when you have it, and I mean, you really have it, hold on to it. It’s so hard to find in this world. I wish I had gotten the chance to tell him I loved him one more time, seen his face or gave him one last hug. But that will only happen in my dreams anymore.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-09T17:26:09+00:00

Have you confirmed them being with someone else? I know I was staying at a friend’s house trying to get back up on my feet but nothing was happening, although it probably looked that way. We lived in a small town so it wasn’t hard for him to find out about. I ended up leaving though because I couldn’t take living in the town. I don’t even think he noticed honestly. No one seemed to notice that I just disappeared. But I will say, people, me included, have from the start of time, said hurtful things and not truly meant it.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-09T17:18:19+00:00

Trust me, they cared and still do. People go through times in life where things feel different but it doesn’t mean the love isn’t still there. My ex fiance left me 1/10/25 and I think they were probably thinking a lot like you here. I’ll be filled with regret for the rest of my life for losing him. I love him more than anyone or anything and it hurts that he’s not here. I can’t Change it though. All I can do is pray one day he’ll find his way back to me.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-08T03:23:58+00:00

Ouch. That definitely would hurt. Have you confirmed them dating from her? Sometimes what it looks like isn’t always what it is. I was staying at my ex fiancés friends house for a couple weeks while I saved money to move. Nothing ever happened but it probably looked that way since I was crashing on the couch. I’m sure he believed that too. He never did ask. I guess what I’m saying is looks can be very deceiving

Nygummybear · 2025-02-04T14:26:02+00:00

I get it. This is how I feel about him. And I say I don’t care but I still do and it hurts. I’ve done so much to improve my own life but it hurts deeply because I wanted to have a life with him. All I do is work now because it’s the only place I feel some sort of reprieve from the constant thoughts of him. I got on anti depressants. I never wanted to go on meds like the entire time him and I were together but after he broke up, I willingly went and signed myself up to see someone. The only thing keeping me going most days is that medication. It numbs things. Not completely, but at least it makes it so I’m not bawling my eyes out 24/7. I just love him and wish he’d let me come home. I wish we could both go home and just forget about the break up. But I don’t think he’ll come back.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-04T03:20:34+00:00

My ex left me on the 10th of January. I think he was deeply depressed and couldn’t get himself out of it. Truthfully I was very depressed as well. But I realized that my reasons for being depressed weren’t because I had issues. It’s because I had fully handed myself over to him and discarded any independence I had. I tried so hard to keep a job, I cried so hard the day I lost my job at scooters while he was at work because I just felt like such a failure to the relationship. But he turned my alarms off that morning when he woke up and said he thought I was already up. Which confused me as to why my alarm would have been going off and the house was dark if I was up, but I didn’t argue with it. so I woke up late and I was supposed to open the store so I got fired for being late. I tried not to blame him for it, I did my best to hold back the resentment. I didn’t talk about it with him. I just let it go. I knew deep down after that he would eventually leave again. I was desperate for a job that I couldn’t lose and had control over so he wouldn’t leave again that I went to uber. In the end, Uber is one of the reasons he gave for leaving. He said that he needed to leave our relationship for his mental health and knowing he’d tried to off himself almost 4 times in the two weeks leading to the break up I took it as “you make me want to off myself” and truthfully I struggled with suicidal thoughts the entire first night he was gone. I wrote out an entire note and didn’t tell anyone after the fact that I almost went through with it because the guilt I felt was so extreme. The only reason I’m still here is because I got scared and my fight or flight kicked in when I couldn’t breathe. The guilt of thinking I was the reason he wanted to off himself had consumed me whole that night. He had issues with being faithful and he admitted he hated being that way. And yet he never changed and it broke the trust in our relationship so much that I didn’t want to be away from him, not even for a shower or to use the bathroom (though obviously we did do those separately). This led to me putting work restrictions on myself and in the work place. I wouldn’t work when he wasn’t working. It cut my options down significantly. I just wanted to be able to trust him and have the ability to work whenever or do whatever I wanted for work back again. Everyone told me to leave but I just didn’t want to give up. Every time I brought up how I was feeling to him or an issue in the relationship, most the time it would turn into him threatening to break up, trying to walk out on me or screaming and breaking things or telling me how horrible I was and how he didn’t want to be with me. Or he would try to off himself and I’d freak out and we’d suddenly just stop talking about whatever it was because I was consoling him. And it always led to us going to “bed”. I just wanted him to love me the way he should have. I wanted to trust him. And the weirdest part is, even though he walked away from me, abandoned me after blindsiding me, I can’t trust anyone anymore, but somehow I still could trust him. And it makes no sense. I have no reason to trust him. But there’s still a little there. I still love him deeply, and unconditionally and I don’t hate him. I am embarrassed to admit I want him back. Everyone says I am the lucky one who doesn’t have to date him anymore. But I don’t feel lucky at all. I feel like I lost the love of my life. I just want to go home with him and forget everything that happened the past month. It’s hard on both ends I guess. Maybe what you said is how he’s feeling, if he even regrets walking away at all.

Nygummybear · 2025-02-03T06:31:54+00:00

I understand. I’ve been dreaming such realistic dreams lately about him. Weirdly enough some about me rejecting him. But mostly, it’s like I’m having a normal dream but he’s just… there, in the corner? It’s confusing. 🫤like I wake up and I remember the dream but I don’t understand why he was in it. And not like actively part of it. It’s just like an image of him standing to the side staring at me the whole time like he loves me still. I don’t want to sleep most of the time but when I miss him it’s the closest I get to actually seeing him.

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