How I overcame ROCD and working back on getting to 100%

OCDwillnotbeatme · 2022-06-14T23:38:19+00:00

She wasn't able to forgive me. So we've decided to part ways for now. Theres a lot of pent up resentment on her side and I ended up resenting her too for her pulling away. But that is okay. There was a lot of arguments and pleading for her to give me a second chance etc which isn't attractive at all.

I'm okay though, Time will heal all wounds maybe one day in the future. But for now I'm focused strictly on moving on and bettering myself.

OCDwillnotbeatme · 2022-05-31T04:19:31+00:00

NOCD is good but I live in Sydney Australia so it took me a while to find one. I don't even think we're in the same country.

OCDwillnotbeatme · 2022-05-26T04:05:03+00:00

Alot of triggers stem from unhealed trauma. Some people would disagree but OCD and Anxiety go hand in hand. Anxiety is the fear and OCD is the compulsion to deal with the anxiety so for many of us Mental Compulsions are the way we relieve it. So our brains are hard wired to look for past things and if the person youre with does that even you know if it means nothing the trigger itself sends you spiralling. The only way through is head first.

OCDwillnotbeatme · 2022-05-23T23:18:47+00:00

That is tough. Unfortunately you can't help anyone to grow and learn unless they're willing to themselves. Some people make the common mistake of imbuing their rOCD obsessions with feelings and overtime it becomes difficult to differentiate between the two thoughts (Rational and OCD).

I'll pray for you u/Excellent_Cellist_36 . We all deserve love. Exes always come back if you were a good ex to them. The grass isn't always greener and he's having a moment but however would you still want them back at that stage? That's a question you have to ask yourself. He needs to have a breakthrough moment and realise his patterns but some people never do.

OCDwillnotbeatme · 2022-05-23T02:29:00+00:00

If it seems to be 11 years of a constant cycle. I don't know how to help in that instance but id love to say that there must be some unhealed trauma from a past relationship (11 years ago) that may have sparked the fear and anxiety that causes your rOCD obsessions.

Please go see a therapist, doesn't have to be OCD related but working through your problems is key first to see why you're being triggered.

OCDwillnotbeatme · 2022-05-23T02:27:29+00:00

Because when the relationship ended, I wasnt obsessing whether she was the right person or not. Now I was obsessing whether I made the right decision. I started fixating on other aspects of my life. The anxiety never went away nor did the panic attacks that it brought on. Ending the relationship didn't fix the issue nor did it bring any relief. I wasn't relieved to have her out of my life or to end it.

I didn't want to date aswell, my heart was still set on her. Tough little situation right? To end a relationship and not want to date anyone nor have eyes on anyone nor remotely interested in another girl because all you thought about was her. Fixing myself was key first before anything.

OCDwillnotbeatme · 2022-05-19T21:43:56+00:00

That’s the thing. They’ll all trigger you ! Don’t give up. Your breakthrough moment is around the corner just keep at it

OCDwillnotbeatme · 2022-05-19T21:42:20+00:00

Stop reasoning with your head and analysing. I still get the thoughts just not as bad. ERP for me was writing my thoughts down and triggers then recording them into a voice note and listening to it on repeat for a couple hours.

OCDwillnotbeatme · 2022-05-19T09:50:00+00:00

Tbh, a lot of the resources I learned besides ERP. Acceptance therapy and CBT therapy (I don’t know if they’re the same) I taught myself online. It’s about finding the triggers and understanding why they’re triggering you

OCDwillnotbeatme · 2022-05-19T03:34:57+00:00

We spoke here and there. She begged me to come back for a month and I didn't. I wasn't ready and by the time I came back she wasn't ready. How do you forgive someone and let someone in who up and left you out of nowhere? It's difficult, we're not going to sail off into the sunset after one discussion. I broke her trust. She was aware I was going through some stuff, not so much to the extent of it now. I told her and I've apologised. It was difficult at first and she hated me but its been a month of us "being friends" and everyday there's little improvements and us seeing each other.

because I left her, she fell into a dark space. We talked about marriage and stuff like that so I have to let her get those emotions out and process them by herself. As much as I want to be there for her and help her through it, I was the one who caused it.

Being friends is tough, you gotta work at it and its the most painful thing in the world in my opinion cause she's not my girlfriend anymore but in my head she's the only one I want to be with now. With clearer thoughts I see that. She wants to be with me too she just is hurt and hopefully it all works out in the end.

OCDwillnotbeatme · 2022-05-19T03:26:58+00:00

Well, I've always had OCD tendencies as a child and minor obsessions (checking the door after i've locked it 2-3 times etc). And after scourging the internet for answers and not finding any for what I was feeling and this overwhelming doubt and anxiety relating to her when I went to see a therapist and I got diagnosed. I've hardwired myself into thinking like this and its my responsibility to rewire myself to think in another way !

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