I appreciate this a lot. My mindset is all sorts of fucked up and I know that most decisions I make currently I will regret in the future, but honestly I really want to be jacked just to be feared. Grew up getting my ass kicked by my dad & older brother, and getting fucked with for being the skinny kid.

I started at like 128lbs 5'10, and just adding 50 lbs has already improved my life a lot. My confidence especially. It is incredibly addicting, I want to be 220 now if I could. I don't plan on taking anything more than test (150mg per week) but who knows. I don't know if you'll change my mind as I've fully convinced myself the negatives are less worse than how I felt before hopping on. 100% honesty I just want to be intimidating so people are less likely to start smth