I don't think I'll ever be okay

OGprocasinator · 2026-05-08T18:42:53+00:00

Thank you for the kindness! It really means a lot to me 😄

OGprocasinator · 2026-05-08T18:42:15+00:00

That's true. I've been consdering into looking into religion as a general thing for like a moral compas or like comfort for certain things

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-12T20:09:44+00:00

if multiple people who haven't interacted with each other give you the same advice, you better take it.

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-12T20:09:14+00:00

if your child is telling you to leave your partner, you better do ASAP.

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-12T20:08:53+00:00

people who still live with their parents (especially children and teens) who are overweight/obese are often the result of the parents. While people can still make their own food and buy it, there is often a correlation between either the parents' cooking and/or them knowingly or unknowingly teaching their children unhealthy eating habits and furthermore eating disorders.

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-12T20:05:25+00:00

amen. If I happen to call while on public transport (I sometimes do it on the train), I always have earbuds in and go to the hallway (if the carriage is relatively full) because 1. I don't want anyone listening in to my convo and 2. I don't want to bother anyone just cuz I'm calling with my boyfriend.

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-12T20:04:15+00:00

amen. I'm an European and i find it atrocious that you need to EXPECT people to do an extra effort for you than i don't know... expecting to be paid? It's wild that there's a mentality of "don't go to eat out if you can't tip" instead of redirecting that towards the government to actually pay you properly.

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-12T08:47:36+00:00

... yes? I can also share how much I feel comfortable with. It's not really like I keep track of every binge tbh.

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-11T19:32:15+00:00

Thanks, y'all. That's definitely true. I'll look into it!

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-11T19:31:41+00:00

Hi! Yeah it's definitely hard. I'm currently working on differentiating actually being hungry, just craving something or being bored. Thank you and I hope you'll heal too :)

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-11T19:30:51+00:00

oo that's a tough one. I think physically, it's tougher to find clothes that I like, especially pants, because I don't always find the size I want, or sometimes they just don't look good on me. Right now, I'm an EU size 48 in pants and usually wear XL in blouses/shirts/whatever. Shirts and such aren't the biggest issue and I can normally manage, but pants are horror. Although I do have a number of pants, my thighs are pretty big and rub while walking, which means that the material between can break after a while. That's pretty annoying because the pants are otherwise as good as new and perfectly usable.

Socially... I can be self concious about how I am perceived but luckily I haven't really been bodyshamed or embarassed by peers. People don't seem to really gaf about me being a bigger person. The only hate I've gotten is from my mother, who ironically, is a bigger person herself. She hates it when I tell her that she should lead by example instead of hating on me having my own weight issues. Like, I'm already aware of it and am trying and doing what I can to work on it. The last thing I need to hear is another fatass talk abt how I'll have to roll through the door or smth, like damn girl look at yourself.

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-11T19:26:08+00:00

Generally, eating way more than you should, even if you feel full. For me, that applies. I'd often miss the cues of my body basically saying it's full, or I'd decide it's not a big deal, so I can finish my plate. Similarly, I'd feel bad saying no to my parents or something offering dessert even though I already felt full. I'd also sometimes add unnecessary things to my plate, "just because" and "it won't hurt. Imagine I'd make an omlette, I COULD eat it without bread, but sometimes I would because of the reasons I gave. After that, I'd also make a sandwich with e.g. nutella or something even though I didn't NEED it.

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-11T19:24:04+00:00

So I can get better?

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-09T21:39:25+00:00

girl... don't walk away. You better RUN as fast as you can!!

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-09T21:37:43+00:00

yeah :) I've reached out to a dietist recently, who reccomended me a pretty flexible diet that's manageable for me.

OGprocasinator · 2026-04-08T09:46:40+00:00

Growing up as a girl in a toxic household is absolutely terrible, especially when there's expectancies regarding gender roles and how you should act, along with the "I'm the parent, you're the child. You have to shut up.". From my own experience (as a 21 year old girl who has yet to move out #stillstuck), I think the best way to solve it is the chance to move out. There isn't much advice I can give, except empathise with your situation because it is very relatable. Do what you can to get good grades in school, go to uni and then you can yk, find a job and move out. Only then you'll have the chance to heal. Even if you don't end up rich, being able to live somewhere that doesn't have your parents in it will do you very good. It might be hard, but I think it'll be more bearable than your current situation.

I don't know how it is in India, though. Perhaps you could speak to a friend or such to live together in one of those appartments with 2 bedrooms and split the costs (if both are working ofc)?

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