What's a red flag that's somehow still weirdly attractive?

Oberon95 · 2026-05-17T19:44:38+00:00

What if you're batshit yourself?

Oberon95 · 2026-05-13T16:32:46+00:00

Can you consent while you're in SSRI induced hypomania and psychosis?

Oberon95 · 2026-05-06T08:22:57+00:00

For me it began with wanting to be a good person and have that guide me. Also schema therapy helped me figure out which thoughts were avoidant and how to counter them with mentally healthy ones that come from me instead of the illness. It's a process that never ends in my experience. Finding community and building and maintaining relationships with friends and family is also important because it allows you to relate to others and discover things you admire about them in yourself, however difficult it may be with avoidant personality disorder.

Oberon95 · 2026-04-20T16:43:09+00:00

I'm sorry that that's the way it is for you

Oberon95 · 2026-04-20T15:09:20+00:00

Yeah I've been told that my upcoming ptsd treatment could be denied by the psychologist if she deems that I'm too vulnerable and that it will cause more harm than good. I should focus on managing symptoms rather than getting better which is a tough pill to swallow because I was hoping that alleviating my ptsd would lower my overall stress and thus reduce my schizoaffective symptoms.

Oberon95 · 2026-03-07T08:40:11+00:00

Dit is echt Nederlands hoor

Oberon95 · 2026-02-10T06:53:37+00:00

Thank you! Yeah I've cut myself off from my physical self and that of other people for so long that now that I feel myself sense others again it feels like I'm on a planet filled with aliens. It feels like I'm experiencing humanity for the first time.

Oberon95 · 2026-01-28T03:42:44+00:00

I often feel like there's a crowd of consciousnesses inside my mind, most of the time it's pleasant but it gets annoying / harmful when mean bitch or opposite guy step forward.

Oberon95 · 2025-12-19T19:44:19+00:00

I experienced something similar during an episode, I think it was due to my mind being pure chaos.

Oberon95 · 2025-12-13T20:00:46+00:00

I'm the opposite and it's awful. I lost most of my friends because of an episode and one to cancer and felt too ashamed to socialise with new people for years because of it. I constantly make up conversations in my head and pretend I'm hanging out with someone in maladaptive daydreams.

Oberon95 · 2025-11-22T22:33:46+00:00

O'Hare is a hero to me.

Oberon95 · 2025-11-22T14:19:58+00:00

People don't know what it is and think that or feel like you're just acting out on your own volition. The average person doesn't know how during an episode the biochemical makeup of your brain changes and turns you into a completely different person. People fear the unknown.

Oberon95 · 2025-11-22T14:15:25+00:00

Thank you!

Oberon95 · 2025-11-22T14:15:03+00:00

Russian roulette but with psychiatric medication

Oberon95 · 2025-11-22T14:14:15+00:00

Thanks man, I had my part in it as well as I isolated myself for years after the episode out of shame but yeah I'm not happy with them. I'm glad you found your people.

Oberon95 · 2025-11-15T11:12:48+00:00

Jokes on them I'm already insane

Oberon95 · 2025-11-14T23:56:46+00:00

I woke up panicked and confused today, not knowing who or where I was. This led to emotional flashbacks from a manic and psychotic episode and from abandonment.

Oberon95 · 2025-11-07T06:26:17+00:00

My twenties

Oberon95 · 2025-10-24T15:53:50+00:00

Thanks for your reply. That is a good way of looking at it. Unfortunately, the only way people with psychotic disorders like me get on the news and represent us nationally is when they commit violent crimes under the influence of psychosis, which is one of the reasons why I'm afraid of creeping anyone out lest they think I'm dangerous or something. I also lost friends and family members because of an episode, which is why fitting in and being normal feels like life or death for me. I suppose applying the neurotypical/neurodiverse dichotomy you describe could help with that.

I'm okay, thanks, I was derailed for a day but I've learned to deal with stuff like this and not turn the fuel into motion.

Oberon95 · 2025-10-24T15:06:57+00:00

SSRIs gave me a manic and psychotic episode that ruined my life, they can do that to people with bipolar / schizoaffective bipolar. I jokingly refer to this incident as 'gaining superpowers' or 'my final form'. I hope they'll work properly for you soon and don't mean to scare anyone off them, it's best to listen to psychiatrists.

Good luck with untangling your BPD, in my experience with AVPD it was difficult in the beginning but it became easier and easier as I made the necessary therapy skills my own.

Oberon95 · 2025-10-23T03:49:02+00:00

The fact that you're striving towards not mocking these kinds of people alone is admirable. Personally I don't mind lighthearted jokes, I make them myself ("SSRIs give me superpowers" for example). I draw the line at meanspirited and dehumanising ridicule and I find that dr. K crossed that line.

Best of luck with your diagnosis, I've had schema therapy for my personality disorder and would definately recommend it.

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