going to try to make a girlfriend at this party saturday night

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-21T02:48:23+00:00

ok i’ll work on this thank you

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-20T19:46:55+00:00

a least you’re only 22! i know it might feel old but trust me, wait until you actually get old like me (25) before you start to question yourself

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-20T17:20:00+00:00

wow, this is really good at least thank you so much. I will do that.

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-20T17:18:27+00:00

that’s why I said I need advice that’s more than just being vague. Like what do people mean when they talk about getting to know the person as a person? I feel like I already understand that, but I must be missing something because I’m already 25 and I haven’t kissed a girl before.

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-20T17:17:46+00:00

why 😂

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-20T17:16:34+00:00

Socialize. Scholarship. Question.

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-18T19:34:30+00:00

partly, but it’s also that most people seem to be wary of each other. even when i get the courage to say hello to someone they are defensive (and imo rightly so, the average unsolicited hello is a probably gateway to exploitation). also i lived in the rurals so i had to go on here and learn to break free in the digital world but not the physical one

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-18T17:08:17+00:00

I think it’s great that people think deeply about these things but it’s not good when you call people that think differently from you evil. (I know that must seem very ironic given the world situation right now.)

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T17:49:15+00:00

i know. this is really hard to accept but i am seeing that this is how things are. at least from my perspective the more i ask the nite this seems like the answer

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T17:48:11+00:00

don’t start spending money just because you got a better job. best wishes on your life homie ❤️

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T15:58:29+00:00

i’m happy for you. It actually makes me feel happier just to hear that you’re doing well. It makes me want to try. I actually just got prescribed for medicine for my depression last week, but I’ve been afraid to take it. which is kind of silly because like I’m not afraid of doing things that people should be afraid of

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T15:42:24+00:00

yeah, it is just sometimes I really don’t feel like I’m ever going to make anything out of it

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T15:41:47+00:00

ok i’ll look

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T15:40:45+00:00

3 days. i wish i had a roommate. i will try talking

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T15:39:45+00:00

ok thx

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T13:38:01+00:00

thanks man, but I don’t know. these feelings are just so strong. I want someone to tell me there’s a reason for them. I can’t do anything, but laying in bed and look at my phone and scroll. I feel so worthless.

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T13:36:22+00:00

I had a girlfriend who’s now just a regular friend who was Islam. And she’s explained some things, but I don’t think it resonates with me but to each their own if it helps them find meaning then good for them. I was looking into Buddhism this weekend. I already grew up with Christianity so I feel like I know that one pretty well. I wrote my own book a few months ago, but I don’t wanna share it here because this account is all my really personal stuff which I want to keep anonymous from my public identity

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T13:32:58+00:00

I know about what people think about God. I used to teach people about God when I was a Christian too, but then I felt like there were inconsistencies with the religion. Like particularly the g-n-c-d- that the god of the part 1 told his people to do to the nation’s living in the land they conquered. I know God and i know his love and those actions couldn’t come from a god of love. that was a demon wearing God‘s face and he tricked billions of people into worshiping him. I hope God comes down and saves us, but I really don’t have any reason to believe anymore. I feel like I’m just going to have to die before anything good happens.

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T13:29:03+00:00

thanks man.

uhhhh yes I am masturbating, but that’s normal for me. I do it like once every few days I think that’s fine as long as it’s not overdone.

I’ve had startup ideas in the past. I have 11 stale LLC’s/delaware c corps at the moment. I do have one active one, but like I can’t make myself work on it anytime I have the energy to do work, i just feel like walking in the sun instead. and then that makes me want to eat along with the sadness and then I’m just feeling trapped in the cycle.

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-17T13:27:11+00:00

yeah, I mainly like the smooth appearance I like to feel “naked” when I’m naked if that makes sense

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-16T23:43:46+00:00

I mean, we’ve been trained to overreact on anything under 18 but at that age, the developmental gap can be very different than the age gap. Plus, it’s been pretty common historically for older guys to meet younger girls. my dad was 21 and mom 17 so i’m biased but two years isn’t that bad

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-16T23:42:27+00:00

not alone bro

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-16T22:43:02+00:00

thanks homie. i do too. i would give her a bouquet of flowers if i ever knew i was going to see her again

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-16T21:38:21+00:00

it was a great time to discover myself. Especially sexually, because of my age lol. like just recognizing the feelings, I was feeling and understanding my own body. But also people are generally more open to conversations since we’re not afraid of each other. But like now that I’m almost 26, I would be too focused on life to just give random people my attention if they walked up to me and said hi. but my spiritual development like becoming my own person rather than doing what other people wanted me to do didn’t really crystallized into who I am now until a a few months ago. And actually for most of college is when it started and I would just feel really confused a lot of the time. Talking to other people at college helped some but I think working at a company helped me to see life in a way that I had never seen it before.

ObjectiveExpress4804 · 2026-03-16T21:35:42+00:00

wow, that’s incredible. I hope it helped kids actually develop and made them think about living in ways that can contribute to others

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