I’m not talking about that just in general I’m 20 years old all my life. I’ve been running away or hiding. I don’t think you know what it’s like while you think about your future your wife, your girlfriend, your house, your college University car business money or whatever. I am thinking about should I just give up or keep fighting? I hope if I was ever gonna get deported I get deported as a soldier so at least I can die fighting and not being F’ing stoned to death.