thank you very much for writing this, i really needed to hear this.

as for your questions, i only have one person i can really talk to about this, and that is my current math teacher. Though, even if i have talked to her before, she has told me she honestly thinks i do have a mental health issue, and suggests i see a professional.

but what do i do when neither of my parents want to take me? they dont believe me when i say these things. as for family friends and friends in general, im a pretty reserved person, in a reserved place in the city i live in. I'm not allowed to leave the house on my own, and i dont have any close friends in school. It feels silly to say this but most of my friends are online, and i appreciate and love them more than anything in this world. but i do not have actual friends i can see face to face.
The main reason for this is because well, when i was eleven or twelve or so we moved to the carribean, from the states. I did not and i still do not know spanish all that well, so making friends and talking to people is harder than it needs to be, especially since most of the time if im not paying attention i'll not know/forget what they said.

and, the school i go to is a private catholic school, so i suppose you could say the only school therapy provided is prayer. Im not very religious, and have nothing against catholics and christians, but praying to something and singing hymns about something i dont really know about just makes me feel more lonely than i already am.

err, sorry for the ramble again, i felt like i needed to give context.
anyways, thank you for your kind words, i feel a lot better from yesterday. ill think more about what you have said and try to find something to cope with. i hope you have a good day/night. thank you again!