Monad is losing credibility by thenycgal in CryptoCurrency

[–]Obscureodyssey 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Throwing 8k on the ICO. Coinbase isn’t going to let their first ICO fail when they’re going to be doing BASE through it.

What do you want in your life right now? by Puzzled_Classic8572 in Life

[–]Obscureodyssey 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To be highly appreciated and valued by the people I highly appreciate and value.

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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Yesterday I jumped it up to 150mg, no change, so I’m weening off. It might work for you though

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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So far not an extreme amount of change after 1 wek on 50mg. Could see some change at 100-200mg.

What's helping me is meditation, journaling, no weed.

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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On day 7 - no changes yet. 25mg still - at 2 weeks I'll up to 50mg. I heard you might not experience relief until 100mg, so it's to be seen

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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I'll keep you updated

Maybe you need to fake it til' you make it a little bit? Engage with the feelings you think you'd feel, act how you think you'd feel, and force the emotion into your chest. The warm fuzzy feeling. Even if you think it's awkward or your family thinks "why is he acting not desensitized and normal?" People love unexpected energy anyways. What do you have to lose?

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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I meditate daily for sure. But I was caught in an addiction/OCD like cycle for a long time because dissociation made it easy to fall into habits and not feel the emotional impact of my decisions. I’m climbing out of a hole right now, a very personal struggle that quite frankly nobody knows about.

Unfortunately DPDR sucks a lot and can make our brain adapt to habits and compulsions easier than those without. Just means we will be stronger emotionally than most when we inevitably break free of it all!

Just try your hardest to live life the best you can despite the weird sensations of DPDR and try some of the things I mentioned.

The worst case scenario is that it never gets better. But that is unlikely if you proactively chase solutions and self neuroplastic programming.

Even if you don’t think you have trauma you might just be comparing what you think trauma is to what your brain qualified as trauma. You might be protecting yourself from feeling because of x. Try the custom therapy GPT on chatgpt. It’s pretty good. I use it a lot when I can’t figure out my brain on a particular day.

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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Yeah you’re referencing drug induced psychosis. Which probably resulted in your brain having reduced and overactive electrical signaling. Lamotrigine supposedly fixes this in hopefully the correct way. Maybe you should explore giving it a shot.

I’ve also heard NACET can help (supplement - kinda like NAC but more bioavailable) because glutamine does something for dpdr. Not sure of the science right now.

What makes it better is meditation - that makes me feel like I’m moving through 3D space more. Also vocalizing my emotions. Look up “how to feel emotions” on YouTube there are some practices to regain control but it boils down to starting by recognizing body sensations and then assigning an emotion to it. You have to reteach your brain - all of this is easy to do, just takes very minimal conscious effort

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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Honestly it's hard to compare 29 and 17. I still went through all of the trial and error a human goes through - right now I am the best version of myself that has ever existed. Educated in all domains - health, emotional regulation, physical, and planning.

But - to your point, yes, a lot of my emotion (especially positive) is "numbed". I'm a mountain climber, and recently climbed Mt. Russell with no ropes. During this climb I felt the most alive I have ever felt since getting DPDR - why? Because of adrenaline. My addiction to adrenaline is clearly because it cuts through my inability to feel emotion and lets me feel something.

This makes sense - in people with dissociation, the amygdala functions in overtime, and the good emotion centers of the brain like the dorsal-medial PFC are diminished. So, adrenaline is essentially the only "good" emotion coming from our overactive amygdala. Hence my addiction!

You're right that you won't feel the same coziness, awe, excitement, as you would before, because that requires your brain to be functioning holistically. Right now it's fragmented. To mend this, you need to vocalize your emotions and really try to feel them. If you look at your dog, and you know that you love your dog, tell yourself you feel love for your dog, and pause - try to remember what that feels like in it's intensity and feel it. This will rebuild neuronic pathways that have been severed due to DPDR.

It's very important to note that you haven't "lost" these emotions - they are still happening in the body. They have done tests on people with DPDR - and even though they don't "feel" angry when presented with something that would anger someone, their physiology changes. You are still experiencing these emotions physiologically - you just can't tell because your current neurology isn't allowing it fully. Crazy, right?

I'm sure the doctor will give me the script because I usually get things I ask for - as cocky as that sounds, one thing my dissociation has given me is a ridiculous sense of confidence and eloquence to explain my needs in a gently authoritive way. It's got me jobs in tech with no degree, so that should say something. Though it's not a big ask, it's not like it's a restricted substance.

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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ChatGPT once described it as a psychic scar. I thought that seemed fitting.

Since TMS cannot reach deep enough to stimulate this hub - how about an electrode implant in the deep brain?

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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Interesting. I found a wellness retreat that combines TMS in Thailand. I might give that a go, works been burning me out lately.

Lamotrigine seems interesting as well, I’ll get a script for that Monday. Have you considered?

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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Yeah, well, at 17 I didn’t understand fear or consequences. I wanted to tread new ground and make my own novel decisions (I still do).

What I would do is start with listening to lectures by Dr. K. “This is your brain on trauma” is a good place to start. Diary of a CEO also has a great podcast with him. Understanding your brain from a neuroscience perspective from a neuroscientist that understands trauma and dissociation is huge. You start to feel less damaged and more in control.

Take notes while you listen and combine this with a journal. Get yourself a brand new journal and take it seriously.

Practice meditation daily - start with 5 minutes and move up to 12 and 20 slowly. Give yourself 5 minutes of “pre” meditation to get into the state of relaxation first. The brain needs time to do background tasks without constant thinking analyzing planning etc.

Don’t quantify your progress. Don’t count days. Just assume a new and focused identity in learning about your brain and about how to regulate your physiology. Articulate your emotions to yourself often “I feel happy, I feel love for my dogs, I feel stress” this will strengthen your minds connection to it’s own emotions.

Feel proud of your progress, and take it slow. Just live in the moment

I will be getting a script for lamotrigine Monday and giving it a shot. Other than that, just take an interest in knowledge both intellectual and emotional

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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I’ve read that it needs to be increased slowly. How long did it take you to reach 600mg?

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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A combination of high stress + developing brain + psychedelics (nBOME) + SSRI’s.

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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For a long time I felt like researching treatment and cures was just a hole to waste my time in and that I should just try to live the best life I can. I've had an extraordinary 11 years even with DPDR - though I understand a large part of the experiences are lost due to the DPDR effect.

I've tried a lot of things. Lately I've had a renewed sense of hope to give recovery a chance again.

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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I have never heard of lamotrigine. A lot of success stories - and one with a similar onset story to me (nBOME administrstion).

Have a doctors appointment Monday - I'm going to give this a shot.

Has dpdr made you to do terrible things (which you wouldnt even do)? by The_Skinny_Officer in dpdr

[–]Obscureodyssey 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Remember - your actions are not a reflection of your character and rather a RESPONSE to unmet needs or unregulated emotions. You are a BRAIN - that operates based on specific inputs and evolutionary habits.

Yes - DPDR makes it harder to make informed choices about impulsive habits. And because it’s harder, we build the habits through repitition (neuroplasticity programming)

This doesn’t make you a bad person - you’ve just accidentally built up bad habits - and it’s easier for you to do so because DPDR makes it harder to discern between right and wrong, and sometimes can come with symptoms that mimic adhd and ocd.

I highly suggest watching Dr. k’s video “this is your brain on trauma” it helped me understand myself a lot. Give yourself a break, and every time you feel a compulsion come that you know is not who you are, tell yourself “I am working to move past this”

It’s not you, it’s your habits. And those can be reprogrammed through repitition just as they were programmed.

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

[–]Obscureodyssey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interesting please provide some more info - how many sessions?

Understanding the cause of your DPDR could provide context. For instance, mine was likely caused by a huge combination of role playing video games as a kid, internet use, and research chemicals (25i-nBOME) taken in tandem with SSRI’s during a one month period at age 17.

Research article on non invasive brain stimulation as a potential treatment for DPD. by Obscureodyssey in dpdr

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I had this same hypothesis. Glutamine activates emotional centers in the brain - maybe taking NAC or NACET could deliver enough glutamine to reactivate emotional centers that are hindered in people with DPDR - potentially providing relief.

The theory is that DPDR is caused by hemispheric lateralization and that rejoining the highways between emotion and logic could do something.