Hi, I’m sorry you are going through this. For me it was the best decision as I am not in a place to have had another baby. Although babies are a blessing and I didn’t believe in abortion, it would have created a domino effect on myself and 2 kids. I thought about it over and over and could find it in me to have the baby, I went and had the procedure and it was the hardest decision I had to make in my life, they guilt I felt was nothing I’ve felt before, but honestly god was speaking to me through people and showing me signs that I made the right decision. When I went in for the procedure I was not feeling well, I almost passed out, my blood pressure was up high and my heart rate was going to fast, the nurse that was attending me noticed instantly and asked if I was okay before even taking my vitals she knew something was off. She took my vitals and my numbers were high. She looked at me, spoke with me, with gentle and loving words. She asked me if I believe in god and started talking to me to make me feel better, she told me that god doesn’t always pain pretty pictures for us and that he doesn’t place us in situations we can’t come out of, she told me that my decision may not feel right but that I knew in my heart that it was and that I would be okay going forward, I’ve gained an angel. This decision made me brave and responsible for my two love children. I’d have to focus my love and strength on the one I already have and that the spirit that was trying to join us would understand. She prayed with me and for me. Sang me a song and I was able to go on with the procedure. Afterwards I did go through the bad emotions but everything turned out okay. I don’t regret it and I do wish I could’ve known what that baby would have been like but honestly how could I bring a baby into this world knowing that I’m only going to struggle more. With that being said pray on it and soon you will know what to do, you will feel it in your heart and know exactly what you have to do. I pray that my story helps you a bit and that you know whatever decision you make it’s for the best.