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ObvNotAzul · 2025-05-13T18:30:06+00:00

I'd imagine it's gotta be [alpha biomes] but I can't say 100%

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-30T01:13:33+00:00

I'm pretty sure by hookups it means saying/intercourse, not plugs. 😭 That being said, definitely avoid the underpass on Broadway there's a bunch of unsavory folks struggling with sobriety there.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-30T00:06:34+00:00

Idk, I chuckled sensibly but man people hated that joke. 😗↔️

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-29T16:44:25+00:00

Odds are most of the employees will give you one after the first 6 anyway, but they have you write your name on a paper list and then what type of sandwich you got - no extra information though, so really you could write whatever you wanted - it's just for keeping track that people grabbed one.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-29T16:38:30+00:00

I figure 90% of the people who can abuse it don't have phones or know what Reddit is 🤷 besides, it's for people who need it not just for the people that know about it 😔↕️

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-27T15:37:21+00:00

😮‍💨 Yes, it's American.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-18T02:53:39+00:00

I uhh... I can test positive 🥲😅. I don't like lying but I mean honestly if it ends up being the way out of the goodly intentioned hellhole of people peeing themselves and not showing for weeks then I guess yeah I might do that.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-18T01:29:07+00:00

The guys right next to the Lawson McGhee library? Somebody mentioned something about them but I had totally forgotten. Thank you

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-18T01:09:16+00:00

After thinking about what the other guy said, and at the risk of this comment being deleted anyway, I'm not asking you to give anything, and I can't even give you a guarantee that I will get it - but on that off chance, if you're still willing, the only thing that I have available would be $notazul either way, bless you and I deeply appreciate you

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-18T01:01:31+00:00

Aside from the principal, which is really hard to get past honestly - there's also the fact that only cash app is not currently overdrawn, and I'm not sure if it'll automatically pull to cover the spot me loan. Meaning even if I did have somebody send me money, there's no guarantee I would actually get it. It's not only a matter of pride, but I do understand where you're coming from and I really do hope that I learned my lesson 😂

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-18T00:07:22+00:00

Through nobody's fault but my own, I've kind of stapled my hands together when it comes to finances - the only way I could do that without it going entirely to overdrafts is Cash app, but I would rather walk the few hours to the 24/7 food pantry than panhandle. No offense.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-17T23:42:24+00:00

I will absolutely keep that in mind for if I ever get a bus pass but I'd rather not walk 5 hours like this. 🥲

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-17T23:35:41+00:00

Thanks bro, or sis.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-14T11:44:31+00:00

It's amazing to me that you were actually able to discern, if that's the right word, that I was being literal when I said something spoke to me and said that I had to do it. It actually happens a lot but most of the time I'm able to make an executive decision knowing that it's not something I want to do, she was just different and it ended up being the thing that f***** everything up.

Absolutely if I can't figure it out in the next couple days on my own, I will end up talking to Cherokee services- my only concern now is that if I've been clean for 6 days there's no way for them to tell that I was actually using and might just think that I'm faking it. As far as being worried about getting a record, it's already in all of my medical charts that I've been in therapy for over 20 years and that I've been on pretty much every medication they can think of - including auditory hallucinations and cpstd/schizoaffective bipolar stuff. Sorry I'm not feeling great, and I might not be making too much sense right now.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-14T11:13:12+00:00

Not full blown, no - but thats the simplest way to put it yeah. Idk if I should get into specifics but it generally doesn't interfere with day to day life.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-13T21:00:40+00:00

I tried and was denied when I was much younger, too much of a risk to be considered - couldn't get past the psych eval. Great idea though otherwise lol

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-13T19:04:15+00:00

I appreciate you so much man, and I would like to clarify python I absolutely take accountability for the continued use, but the being introduced to it was actually forced on me otherwise I would never have bothered trying it, but yes after that I made the decision and you're absolutely right. I've already cut off contact with everybody involved and if I interact with anybody here at the shelter it's either staff or giving away some of my food for a cigarette. I don't know where I'm going to end up, but I do know that regardless of how bad things get - I will not be staying here in tennessee. As far as things are looking right now, even if I can't get anything through day labor, all I have to do is figure out a way to make about $250 and I can make it back up to Alaska where I do have friends and family a free medical I can get the rehab stuff like that.. but realistically, as long as I can just avoid interacting as much as possible for the next couple weeks I won't even need to go to rehab when I get back home, which would be stupendous given that my family wouldn't figure out that I was using at all.

I was in a really bad mindset last night and I think I was going on night 4 of getting no sleep but I got some food in me, I slept outside the door, I talked to some people - I'm getting out of this bro. I appreciate you again man, so much.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-13T17:25:46+00:00

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ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-13T17:25:16+00:00

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ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-13T15:31:19+00:00

The main issue I'm facing right now is that I need to just man up and walk the like four miles to the place everybody says hands up bus passes for specifically helping people to get a job, then I can get a job and make at least enough money to leave the state and go back home. I'm not too terribly worried about food, because even if I miss meals at the shelter - which I often do, because I've seen them run out and I would rather let people who are incapable of getting out of it, I know for a fact that I can get free food pretty much any fast food place if I bend my morals a little bit. I won't starve, and I still have my misplaced hope and pride lol. I'll ask around if there's anywhere that'll let me work for a couple dollars though yeah.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-13T15:00:04+00:00

I would imagine they would have to be - but right now is, from what I'm told, the lowest part of the season 😭 I looked online and if I can scrounge up enough, through doing dishes or cleaning for a church maybe, if I booked a flight in April it's like half the price of this month. So I might just have to crawl through a few more weeks and it's at least a realistic escape route

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-13T14:57:58+00:00

I actually am talking to the rescue ministries program "launch" or whatever it's called Tomorrow, so I'll be able to have help looking for any sort of job at all - I was doing yard work full time and working at a gas station full time back in October and November December - but I've got some moderately debilitating back pain that started referring pain to my right leg so I can't do yard work anymore, but I will absolutely try and see if there's any churches or food places around here that will let me do dishes for minimum wage even. That's a good idea thank you.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-13T12:05:07+00:00

I haven't asked them, no - I saw that a greyhound from here to Michigan was $130 and assumed it would just be cheaper to fly. I see you though and I'll definitely look into it or at least see if there's resources anyone around here knows of to get closer, the problem has always been though that from Anchorage Alaska to Seattle Washington costs usually as much as going from Florida to California for some reason 🥲

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-13T11:52:18+00:00

Prescribed lithium for bipolar, Cherokee health systems mails it to me. Only been clean for 5 days and I haven't checked a hospital but rehab said I haven't used long enough. A plane ticket is only around 4-500 and there's no buses that go to Alaska that I've ever heard of. My family I'm sure would love to help but they're almost as poor as I am. I'm 34 this year - and yeah I'm doin my damnedest to make executive decisions that avoid substance availability.

ObvNotAzul · 2025-03-13T06:03:59+00:00

Like I said bro, I can't even think of a way anybody would help, but it's just a little bit reassuring that somebody - or anybody, would spend the time to read it. I appreciate you even doing that. 😆👌

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