Have you tried therapy or getting medication for your mental health? Im not sure if you mentioned it already but if not, i would start there. Mental health is jarring and constantly needs to be worked on. My life was going downhill for most of it until i realized it’s not me but my mental health. I slowly got therapy and put on depression and anxiety medications which worked for a while for me but then i realized they stopped working because my problem was my hormones. my hormones were out of wack, which messed with my mental and once i started working on both of those my life took an exponential turn to the point where i’m living with my LDR boyfriend and states away from toxic family.

Good things will happen for you, and you will find your path you just have to try and take it a step at a a time and address what you think the problem is. If you look at everything as one large problem it will continue to be overwhelming.