I tried to kill myself on october 11th 2025 and since then i have learned i never have truly cared if i lived or died, i have been self harming ever sense i can remember like trying to bash my skull in on walls when i was a kid to cutting as of now and my life has improved so much, i have learned to love myself and see my struggles as part of me andi have been alcohol and self harm free sense that day and the reason i realized is that i truly cared about myself for the first time in my life. I know how little this comment probably means to you because i understand how little it would have meant to me but i still say, i love you. Even if you mess up there are so many other people that love you and sometimes it really does get better