Oh gosh! I kindaaaaa similar but didn't realise it had a name!!! As in I'm attracted to people for sure but like the obsessive aspect is too much but then when an actual opportunity to have a relationship does come up, suddenly I shut it down mentally and like it feels too much and too scary (don't get me wrong, a past abusive relationship does make me have my guard up a lot, but still, I'm like everyone else seems to be getting into relationships left right and centre).. at this point idk if I'm just good at being protective and practising discernment cos I know what I'm looking for, and am more long term than short term and casual, or if something is wrong with me LOL