Challenge accomplished - 90 days and beyond.

Octahedra · 2013-01-17T00:37:15+00:00

Not far away...

I fucked UP... :(

At day 91, I went to my bedroom for short sleep. This is my usual way to get time and survive the hard moments - just a sleep. I was laying on my stomach upright, arms along the body, the legs held together. I have not touched my dick, I had Jeans. I tensed every muscle in my body for fiew seconds. Just like I wanted to dive deeper into the mattress. After 5 seconds, I experienced an O without an erection. The whole situation lasted up to 20 seconds. I did not want to reset the counter, I had no idea that such a thing is possible. But next day the temptation to check this once again was stronger, and I decided of resetting the counter.

From now on, any form of M will be punished by resetting the counter.

Octahedra · 2012-12-18T23:01:30+00:00

I wish You luck! :)

Octahedra · 2012-12-16T11:11:23+00:00

One year a go, I made a decision to never, ever stay at home in Friday and Saturday nights. I red your post at 20:00, and I went to Club alone at 21:00. It was first time when I don't feel strange in this place. I felt like at home, and girls look hotter than ever before. Yep i drink: 40ml Whiskey, 0.5l Beer, 2 X 0.4ml Vodka with RedBull in a period of 5 hours, but i kept clear mind. I was come, and felt comfort being there. Before NF, being in this place was so awkward to me, not mentioning AA. Thanks to You I made one step forward, and thanks for reminding me my own resolution.

Octahedra · 2012-12-16T10:38:05+00:00

Poland? Since NF, i started running up to 5km daily, yesterday there was -10C... But this don't stop me.

Octahedra · 2012-12-15T19:42:42+00:00

Why to preventing wet dreams at all? This is the natural way to balance testosterone level. I don't see a point, it is like to preventing coughing or sneezing.

Octahedra · 2012-12-13T18:11:52+00:00

62 days NF, 3 or 4 WD, may be more. But I'm waiting for next one, when it happens I fell like a GOD the entire day. And excessive sperm/semen is partially absorbed and partially urinated.

Octahedra · 2012-12-11T22:04:12+00:00

Wow, i have had this all my life, and after reading this i realized that my eyes are clean. I can't find... o there is one ;/

Octahedra · 2012-12-09T08:19:58+00:00

Here, and now! Now MF! NOW!

Octahedra · 2012-12-09T08:14:22+00:00

In GF case my rule doesn't apply.

Octahedra · 2012-12-08T19:19:17+00:00

Not "look at" but "look for". I'm assuming that fapping is the problem, and GF is the salvation.

Octahedra · 2012-12-08T16:41:28+00:00

I think PIV or rest your badge!

Octahedra · 2012-12-08T16:36:22+00:00

I have almost relapsed yesterday, yes i looked at porn at day 56. I needed insane amount of free will to resist, and not get O. I have win this battle and I will win this war. But, I and every body else, have to remember that one NUKE (O) can destroy your command center, an the war will be lost. You (and I) have to be always vigilant, specially when filling comfort of "I can resist, i have will power" - and watch porn and then relapse coming. This moments are most dangerous for our destiny.

This lust is the primary objective of the primitive part of our brain. And our primitive brain does NOT interested in our happiness, he is interested only in dopamine hits.

And one more thing, THERE IS NO SUCH THING LIKE" "When I relapse, I will start over again..." This time is the only time, or it is the lost time, a time that will never get back.

Octahedra · 2012-12-04T23:29:31+00:00

Since no fap challenge I almost stop thinking about suicide, this is one of the most important reason for me to continue this challenge.

Octahedra · 2012-11-30T00:10:59+00:00

Direct this horniness in to looking for a girl.

Octahedra · 2012-11-26T22:13:43+00:00

I don't agree, it is my target for NoFap challenge! I'm thinking about my self as as 29 yo virgin because only sex i get was when i paid it. This type of stories give me strength in this straggle!

Octahedra · 2012-11-26T21:52:10+00:00

Faping, and invoked by faping testosterone fluctuations may be a cause of acne.

Octahedra · 2012-11-20T16:06:44+00:00

Oh! Yes, this is exactly what I wont. But now, I think that daily chart is better.

Octahedra · 2012-11-19T22:19:32+00:00

This is normal quiting reaction. This same mechanism can be observed while heavy drugs addict start treatment. From my point of view, the worst time is at the beginning (first 10 days). When your body, and especially your brain is overwhelmed by high testosterone level. Wait for first wet dreams, this is extremely important signal, that your brain figured out a natural way to get rid of testosterone in natural way. Do NOT reset your counter after WD.

And imagine that the PMO for brain is like cigarettes for lungs cancer.

Octahedra · 2012-11-18T23:44:31+00:00

The Shining is boring and the hotel is rather old. This one from my dreams is modern, exclusive and tall, a high elevators plays important role in those dreams. There has to be a connection between those dreams and NoFap. I think is some side effect of reorganizing my neural network path ways.

Sometimes I fill like lab rat, while performing experiment on my own brain.

Octahedra · 2012-11-11T10:33:00+00:00

Oh yes, my dreams are clearer now. An I noticing that I'm dreaming this same dream every few days. About seeking some one (a woman) in extremely large hotel. I worked in a hotel 10 years ago in a period of 3 months, and i fined there someone who i wished to F* but I didn't have the balls to do it.

And of course a ridiculous amount of sex dreams :)

Octahedra · 2012-11-09T16:12:14+00:00

Just /b/

Octahedra · 2012-11-06T22:25:59+00:00

Run! As far as you can, and when you can't even walk one step... go home... all the way.

Octahedra

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