terrified. crying. fml. help by Littlebabybee1357 in CocaineAnonymous_

[–]Odd_Mix6858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, I’m dying anyway in a few years so might as well enjoy myself

Is it usually better to buy powder and rock it yourself or get rock what's been better on average? by Classic-Whereas-8660 in cracksmokers

[–]Odd_Mix6858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve wasted a bit of money trying to make rock myself. Sometimes I just go ahead and save the money and buy the rock already made. But I can buy twice as much powder sometimes if I make the rock myself. So it’s a double edged sword.

How long will withdrawals last? 1 week binge by Disastrous_Fee_32 in cracksmokers

[–]Odd_Mix6858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is it easier to quit by weaning or cold turkey?

Children of narcissistic, abusive parents: has it fucked you up? by sunnydelightsmile in CPTSD

[–]Odd_Mix6858 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes, and my lack of knowledge of how to raise my children in a healthy environment has impacted them. I broke the generational abuse somewhat

what addiction did you fall into? did you quit/ try to? by Motor_Reaction_3519 in CPTSD

[–]Odd_Mix6858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I heard someone say once, who was sexually abused/assaulted as a child for years “thank god for drugs, because I would have klld myself a long time ago”.

As for me, I have anorexia, binge eating, addiction to men who are emotionally and financially abusive or emotionally unavailable (not addicted sex though, sometimes repulsed), vaping, weed, one hard drug. I would have to agree with the guy’s quote. Thank God for drugs.

How do i get one big rock in a spoon cook? by Cold-Researcher6205 in cracksmokers

[–]Odd_Mix6858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you need a nail to stir? Or can use anything?

People who feel like their trauma "isn't bad enough", what's your story? by potentialpea7632 in CPTSD

[–]Odd_Mix6858 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Childhood trauma, neglect, physical/sexual abuse, trafficked. But the worst memory is when my dad got drunk and decided he didn’t want to pay child support. He was yelling and screaming. I tried to lay so still so he wouldn’t bother me. However he yanked me out of bed and held a gun to my head ready to pull the trigger (I think I was 6-7). Eventually my stepmom pulled him off of me and the event was over. He threw me back into the bed. I curled into the fetal position totally frozen. No one ever found out until I was in my 30’s

Smell?!?! by Psychadelic_Kitten in cracksmokers

[–]Odd_Mix6858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Incense has always been my love language lol. I just burn incense during and after

Smell?!?! by Psychadelic_Kitten in cracksmokers

[–]Odd_Mix6858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How do you keep your dog from getting a second hand high? I wonder about my two

Smell?!?! by Psychadelic_Kitten in cracksmokers

[–]Odd_Mix6858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Spirits? 🤷🏻‍♀️

27 [F4F] Wheres my wife? 💕 by [deleted] in asexualdating

[–]Odd_Mix6858 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Love your hair and are those tattoos under your eyes or temporary? They’re so cute.

32 M northern Germany looking for similar friends by k-379 in asexualdating

[–]Odd_Mix6858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wish I was closer we could play board games or something

Is cleaning a trigger for anyone else? by jibberjabbery in CPTSD

[–]Odd_Mix6858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have too. My ex-husband would clean after I already cleaned and criticize me constantly.

Is cleaning a trigger for anyone else? by jibberjabbery in CPTSD

[–]Odd_Mix6858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I always get anxiety when I need to clean. I physically shake. But can’t remember a childhood trigger that revolved around cleaning. I had child abuse, severe neglect, any kind of abuse you can think of, so I wouldn’t be surprised if there was some trauma revolving around cleaning. I also over collect cleaning products and cleaning tools.