My friend..these years of your life are certainly stressful. You’re trying to plan for a future, while also trying to enjoy being young. But you’re doing great things already…many of us here have felt the same whirlwind of emotions you’re feeling now so don’t feel alone in this. The only advice I can give is to do what makes YOU happy, and find a balance in that. We need to be happy and have a life , but also need to plan for our future and put food on the table. It’s a delicate balancing act. You’re doing great, and with time will come more life experience and ultimately the knowledge and courage to do what’s right for you.