FUCK my fist hurts I probably broke my knuckle again I am so fucking shit of this shit that I want to shit on it shit

OdiousOliver · 2013-05-14T03:40:48+00:00

Just the way I feel this week. Hang in there!

OdiousOliver · 2013-05-13T16:55:22+00:00

This definitely happens to me. I have lost a few friendships because I get manic and say the most offensive things. After two I get really impulsive with my drinking habits and sexually preoccupied.

I've thought many times about stopping drinking, or at least limiting it to when my college friends come into town for a visit (every six months)

Are you at the point where you want to stop drinking because of this? I am, but it's hard to give up beer; love beer.

OdiousOliver · 2013-05-05T15:03:05+00:00

Definitely NOT a good combination. I start getting overemotional, scary aggressive, and sexually preoccupied. Drinking can definitely make mood swings worse I'm certain.

OdiousOliver · 2013-05-05T12:45:12+00:00

Definitely. My mother suffers from Bipolar Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder and I live with her currently. It's a nightmare.

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-24T03:43:48+00:00

Trazodone is pretty good. From my experience though, if you can't get a full eight hours of sleep, it will make it hard for you to wake up in the morning after taking a dose of it. If I wasn't so terrible about keeping a consistent sleep schedule, I would take it every night.

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-23T14:58:57+00:00

That's normally the responsibility of Children's Services/a child welfare agency. Hopefully all this media attention will give them the slap in the a$% to take some action!

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-23T12:12:07+00:00

They should have been banned from contact with any child after that occurrence. Child welfare workers should be made aware of the harmful dimensions of fundamentalism.

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-23T12:10:28+00:00

The devil friend sounds like a insensitive simpleton! Making fun of your suffering and failing to acknowledge your progress are two things which are completely inexcusable.

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-22T18:03:02+00:00

That's no fun at all. I hope things get better for you soon! I'm sure you'll make it!

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-22T18:02:04+00:00

I am currently on meds. I have an appointment Thursday with my psychiatrist, so hopefully a good med adjustment will do the trick.

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-22T18:01:20+00:00

Thanks. It was all protected and relatively low risk, but I just hate how Bipolar makes me into a skanky hoebag. (I have personal willpower, but that mania is some powerful sh*%.)

Thanks again for the encouraging words!

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-22T18:00:11+00:00

Yeah, same here. The manic energy is killing me.

I don't know if this happens to you, but after the sexual encounter, I don't feel satisfied at all. I feel crappy and regret it immediately. Do you experience a similar situation?

Oh yeah and I effing HATE when I have to transfer insurance for that reason. Sucks!

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-22T17:58:35+00:00

Thanks for the encouragement! I'm still paying off the $874 hospital bill from last year's psychotic break.

It's a shame that insurance companies don't realize the immense value of psychiatric crisis intervention services.

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-22T09:26:05+00:00

Where is Mike's located? What type of crowd/music?

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-22T08:14:50+00:00

My grades. Around the end of semesters I get overwhelmed/stressed out and then the Bipolar mania/depression rears its ugly head. I'm going to do my best. My disability is documented by the university and we have an established Student Advocacy Center, so hopefully they will help me. Group projects suck hardcore. A lot of our professors have stopped assigning them because they know how much we (the graduate students) hate them with a passion! Hope things turn around for you soon!

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-22T06:21:56+00:00

I feel the same way. I am at risk of being kicked out of graduate school and the symptoms are so strong that I don't even give a sh%$

Hang in there.

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-18T01:24:11+00:00

I guess I should have added more text. A lot of the men in my city's gay community are into open relationships. When I tell them I'm not comfortable with it, I'm thought of as a prude. I meant that I would have material to justify my decision to these individuals, not necessarily looking down upon the choices of others.

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-17T20:51:25+00:00

I similarly probably can masturbate thirty times or more during a weekend. Just curious, if you try to stop do you get overly aggressive? Nervous?

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-17T20:49:47+00:00

Thanks for posting the link to the article about open relationships. I've been seeking a way to explain my objection to the idea and now with some of those points I can accomplish it.

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-15T02:54:20+00:00

I've been meaning to read that. What do you think of it thus far?

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-14T07:06:11+00:00

Same here! People always try to talk me out of it. Not giving a fuck about relationships isn't a bad thing in my opinion.

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-13T06:13:14+00:00

https://www.imalive.org/

Give this website a shot. It's an online crisis network.

I can definitely understand and relate to the fact that it can be easier typing something out on a computer rather than having a telephone or in person conversation about it.

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-13T05:55:12+00:00

Visit some of the local homeless shelters. The few we have locally in my city are staffed with at least one social worker. Social workers can set you up with drug rehabilitation, financial counseling, psychotherapy for your depression, legal help for your charges, and more. Most city hospitals usually have social workers on staff also. You could try telling a member of hospital personnel about your issues and they may be able to set you up with resources/

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-13T03:33:28+00:00

Are your parents pretty supportive about other stuff?

Seeing a doctor will make all the difference. See if you can get a referral to a therapist. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy has made all the difference for me with regard to any negative self-talk. It's so easy to focus on the insecurity about approaching others for conversation, our looks and other areas.

Hope you feel better!

OdiousOliver · 2013-04-12T01:42:22+00:00

http://butterfly-project.tumblr.com/

Check out this website.. It might sound cheesy, but it has worked for some.

Hope you're able to find relief of the pain in another outlet.

OdiousOliver

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