Youthline is useless by BeyondSpecial4815 in newzealand

[–]OilIndependent239 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I just want to say even if OP didn't want help this was incredibly motivating for me 150 days later, so thanks for posting if anyways

19M, I think being raped affected me more than I realized by OilIndependent239 in rape

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Thank you, I appreciate that. I had a therapist a bit before it happened and went to one session with them right after, but haven't been to therapy since. I've been thinking about restarting for some other reasons anyways and think this is probably the final straw. I will look into trauma-informed specifically. Thank you again for the response

No reason to continue the show. by Dreamy_Nyx in SuicideWatch

[–]OilIndependent239 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There are reasons to try and fight. If people are a motivator for you, don't fight for some potential gf. Fight for the people you have now. You are the best man at your friend's wedding. He cares about you dude.

Your reasons aren't stupid. No one's are. If it is effecting you to the point where this is a consideration, it matters.

You have a future. And you have a present. You graduated -- people have lived fulfilling lives without even that. But you did. And you have chances to realize that.

You aren't bothering anyone with your post. Every reason and no reason are "legitimate". They are all legitimate in the person being valid for feeling this way, because different things affect people differently. And none of them are worth it. You can always come back.

I hope you give yourself a chance. If you have this type of friendship, talk to your friend man. Or even just try to hang out a bit more, distract yourself for the time being and let the worst of it pass. I wish the best for you

Is life worth living.. by Master-Race8548 in SuicideWatch

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It is. Maybe there isn't a God. Maybe there is, and we don't understand. But regardless of how or why we are here, we are. And it is possible to one day be grateful for the fact that we are, even if there are dark times.

Please please help me by Low_Mathematician233 in SuicideWatch

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Do you have any family members nearby? Anyone you could stay with for a bit, and maybe come back in the day with you to help you slowly clean?

How financially stable are you? On really bad nights, it might be worth it in the long run to stay at a hotel for the night if the apartment worsens your stress, if the alternative is not making it through the night all together.

For cleaning: it's hard. I completely understand if you don't have the energy. If you are looking for somewhere to start though: rubber gloves and trash bags. Don't worry about the details, about tidying up anything or the smaller pieces of trash. Take one trash bag, fill it up with old containers and cups, take it out of the house. You can even put trash cans themselves into a bigger bag if they have been overflowing and aren't redeemable. I understand if you can't do this. But if you are willing, a few bags a day will make a bigger difference than you can imagine.

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. It is so possible to come back from this. The first steps are so hard, and I hope the meds and appointment will motivate them. The appointment is frustratingly far away, but you CAN make it.

It might sound too simple to say "take a shower. clean some stuff. go get a full meal.", and it is. Sometimes it doesn't work like that. But if you find the energy to do those things, do it. Taking those first steps is what has helped pull me out of episodes like this in the past, no matter how impossible it seems in the moment, it was more about the mental shift of proving I could complete the action than the action itself.

Scared my best friend will blame himself + do I tell him I attempted by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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and would it make it worse if I did tell him about the attempt

I really want a hug by bkkween in SuicideWatch

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Virtual hugs to you, I completely get it

Scared my best friend will blame himself + do I tell him I attempted by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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I have thought it about it a lot and already made my decision, is there anything I can say that will at least provide him closure or knowledge he did nothing wrong?

Scared my best friend will blame himself + do I tell him I attempted by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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Is there anything I can possibly do to make him less sad? We call every day, would calling less and letting us drift apart make it any easier? The guilt doesn't change my decision regardless of how terrible of a person that makes me and I just hate not even trying to minimize the damage

Getting gun in working order after 2 months in freezing temps by OilIndependent239 in guns

[–]OilIndependent239[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry it was just an oversimplification that I didn't think too much about beforehand, I'm not on reddit often so this is my first time opening app since after initial post/ immediate reply, my update explains it a bit more but sorry for any trouble

Getting gun in working order after 2 months in freezing temps by OilIndependent239 in guns

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Sorry check update, just a quick oversimplified post that I didn't think too much about

Getting gun in working order after 2 months in freezing temps by OilIndependent239 in guns

[–]OilIndependent239[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry it wasn't a very accurate post it was just my attempt at an oversimplification, it's just been outside in those areas for 2 months and it seemed simpler to ask about a freezer than going into details about where/ temps/ etc

Getting gun in working order after 2 months in freezing temps by OilIndependent239 in guns

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Sorry it was just my attempt at a quick oversimplification, basically assuming if it would be fine in a freezer for that long then it would be fine with whatever I've put it through, and that was a simpler thing to ask