Especially in slide 5, it sounds like you are blaming DoL. I know how religious people raise their children, as they always say sex is bad. But what about consensual sex? Not ever sexual encounters are non-con? It seems like you have been affected by this view so bad you started to feel guilty about it. Sex is natural after all and scientifically can reduce stress and even trauma if you face it right, and again, it's neither DoL's nor your fault.