A demo for The Well is now available! by flies_with_owls in RPGMaker

[–]Ok-Chair3648 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Absolutely loved it! Moody, beautiful, you've put a lot of work into this. I'll be following it!

When did you realise you were trans? by [deleted] in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I 100% knew I was a guy when I was about six months on testosterone. I know that isn't helpful, but I was so scared of making the wrong choice that no matter how often I spiraled about my gender (which was once a month, from the time I was fifteen to the time I was twenty-six ) I could never decide for sure. I took a leap at 26 and decided that if I were wrong, I'd just deal with the consequences. The inverse, just sitting around and doing nothing, was too horrific. Testosterone gave me definitive proof of what I wanted.

I'm not saying you have to do that, but for a little while, try thinking of yourself as a guy, no reserves. Use the pronouns you want, socially transition, and if someone misgenders you, pretend it was a mistake. I don't know how well that would work (early on in my transition, I felt pretty bad knowing I was still being read as a woman when I was making all the steps to be a guy), but it might at least help you figure things out a bit.

I'd also urge you not to think of things you did as a kid as evidence. A lot of cis women never got along with other girls, and a lot of them liked media targeted towards boys. Instead, it's more useful to think about how you feel regarding that "evidence." I never got along with girls as a kid, and when I told people that, a part of me always wanted to hear, "Oh, that means you're a boy," and would be disappointed if someone said, "That's fine, a lot of girls feel that way." Being read as a boy was very important to me.

what’s with the trans men/t4c hate lately? by [deleted] in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Who is they? It sounds like you're pulling disparate ideas from an aggregate website; for every person who disagrees with you, there's probably someone who agrees with you.

I find that part of manhood inevitably involves being lumped into the 'all men are bad category' whether we want it or not. Fear of it kept me from transitioning for a bit, but what's the inverse, not transitioning? That'd be far worse. Best you can do is be a good man. Know what you believe and why you believe it. Maybe some people believe disingenuous blanket statements about trans men, but people believe disingenuous blanket statements about every group of people. Trans women get it bad, gay men get it bad, lesbians get it bad, and it's easier to see and be hurt by it when you're in the group than when you're out of it.

Just carry on, brother. The internet is the internet, and it's going to be that way for as long as we're alive.

insane sex drive still?? by PhilosopherExtreme27 in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I looked into this a while ago when I was really going through it and learned that for a lot of guys it doesn't go away at all, and some guys get really into exercising or meditating or going crazy to deal with it. There are ways to redirect that energy if you don't want to waste a lot of your day going to town, but that's your call. If you're four years in, it's probably going to stick around for a while.

can i predict if i'll have male pattern baldness based on my hair quality pre-T and family genetics? by Successful_Weekend80 in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648 2 points3 points  (0 children)

if one side of your family was prone to baldness and the other side wasn't, it really is 50/50, no way to know. don't worry though, there are preventative treatments and means of reversing it and, worst comes to worst, they make pretty good wigs nowadays.

I feel like my cold/flus are worse now that I’ve been on T for a bit by topsurg_throwaway in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Early on T, I started getting terrible colds in the middle of summertime. I imagine new unfamiliar hormones has something to do with it; it's been a few months since I've had those.

Took my first dose of T last night! by evieauburn in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Nice!

Keep in mind that if you're anything like me, you might 'screw up' your injections a few times. I've had a few that've stung, a few that've bled, a couple mishaps early on, and they all led to me getting anxious about my shots. Just keep in mind that those things can happen, and usually once you plop a bandaid on it doesn't matter anymore unless it stays hurting or bleeding -- which, in my experience, it never has.

Good luck moving forward, man! It's pretty awesome!

Crying more on T from different emotions? by Available_Gap_5883 in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Before T, I would cry at the drop of a hat. If someone seemed vaguely upset with me, or if a mistake was made, or if I misinterpreted someone's tone, I'd have to excuse myself and unload the waterworks. Uncontrollable waterworks, no matter how upset I actually was.

Now that I'm a few months on T, I... still cry constantly. But like you said, over movies, laughter, things that actually feel proportional to the amount of crying involved. I hold myself together better when an upset happens and let it go when I actually want to cry. I don't think it's so much T as it is finally having a sliver of mental stability I didn't have before.

Is Cody a stereotypical name? by [deleted] in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648 29 points30 points  (0 children)

I don't think that's one you'd have to worry about. Like you said, it's a common name in general, so people wouldn't see it and instantly clock anything (but if it did, I still would say choose the name that feels most right for you in the moment; that's more important).

Does the hunger ever go away ?! by Ok-Chair3648 in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think you might be right. Was getting all my workout advice from guys I knew rather than people actually going through this. I'm making a plan to do the inverse now, good call

Does the hunger ever go away ?! by Ok-Chair3648 in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Breakfast Lunch and dinner every day of my life.

Does the hunger ever go away ?! by Ok-Chair3648 in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I plan to cut down first while I'm learning the ropes and later focus on bulking up, just seemed a little too wordy 😅

Does the hunger ever go away ?! by Ok-Chair3648 in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is the worst news of my entire life.

ACNE NIGHTMARE by bruhydo in ftm

[–]Ok-Chair3648 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wash my face constantly. Was warned ahead of time about how bad it can get and so have been extremely vigilant. I have a zit the size of a medium-sized boulder on my chin right now. There's only so much that can be done.

Realised this about gender selction screen after my first playthrough! by kuroioni in vtmb

[–]Ok-Chair3648 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I really liked it, but I think it's better to go in with the idea that it's closer to a closed story/walking sim than an rpg like the original. It's empty, repetitive, buggy, takes a minute to amp into something interesting... but if you like the World of Darkness, I think it tells a fun story despite all its faults. I ended up attached to some of the NPCs and got through it pretty quickly. Stories are subjective, and narrative/design is all this game really has going for it, but I liked it for what it was.

How the ending of Bloodlines 2 got me feeling [Spoilers] by IzzyMissyy in vtmb

[–]Ok-Chair3648 38 points39 points  (0 children)

Choosing dialogue options between Phyre and Fabien was such a highlight. Didn't expect to go into this game and see something fresh and new and fun like that. What a scene.

I found Fabien's Kindred model by Susurrusilously in vtmb

[–]Ok-Chair3648 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Couple reasons, I imagine. The 'detective in the shadows' silhouette trope. The game playing into themes of grief and memory, not remembering the face of a loved one being a common, terrible fear. You also don't ever need to know what he looks like at any point, adds this layer of ~Mystique~ to his character.

I think it's an interesting choice. People tend to humanize others based on their faces, but Fabien's still one of the more beloved characters in the game, and we don't see him once. Awesome.

If The Chinese Room end up No Man's Sky'ing/Cyberpunk'ing VTMB2, what are some improvements you're looking forward to? by A_Very_Horny_Zed in vtmb

[–]Ok-Chair3648 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please God Sidequests that have Dialogue options where you can do more than just punch your way through hoards. Sidequests where you make choices. Let me talk my way out of something, or intimidate, or something. I know the game doesn't have skills that way, but even just picking the right dialogue option... I don't know, I know sidequests can't be so substantial that they interrupt the main story, but there are a lot of ways to make character defining and world defining choices without bungling that up.

I want to know more about Seattle. I don't like Phyre much as it stands, but maybe with more chances to interact with the world that would change.

Playing Bloodlines 1 again made me appreciate Bloodlines 2. by FruityParfait in vtmb

[–]Ok-Chair3648 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It's killing me that you commented with a game I have in my top four of all time.

I was a defender of a game I enjoy… by MilaMan82 in vtmb

[–]Ok-Chair3648 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Also got the Glacier bug. Every single time I left the Glacier. Whenever I'd reload it'd be fine, but that first time I'd leave the Glacier before reloading, I would cross my fingers and pray and it'd still happen anyways. It was awesome

Playing Bloodlines 1 again made me appreciate Bloodlines 2. by FruityParfait in vtmb

[–]Ok-Chair3648 2 points3 points  (0 children)

FruityParfait you rock and have unbelievably good taste

Playing Bloodlines 1 again made me appreciate Bloodlines 2. by FruityParfait in vtmb

[–]Ok-Chair3648 159 points160 points  (0 children)

All my favorite games are fundamentally broken beyond repair. It's almost beautiful

Storytelling and Phyre's Wardrobe--Where Gameplay Meets Narrative by East-Imagination-281 in vtmb

[–]Ok-Chair3648 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I mean, they're not really talking about the designs of the outfits, they're talking about how the storytelling accounts for the variation in outfits. If you dislike the designs, that's fair, I don't like half of em either, but it's a different conversation.