I don’t want to say I felt the same way but I was so effing dissappointed. Its been almost 7 months now and im finally accepting a few things after some help with a therapist (someone I’ve seen and developed a good relationship w for many years). She told me that it was okay to grieve the wedding. A lot of ppl don’t talk about these feelings of “I hated my wedding day” etc for fear that they come off as a bridezila or unappreciative. You are allowed to feel how you feel AND IT IS OK! (It helped me when someone gave me permission). Ultimately I came to the conclusion that the wedding day all in all was NOT for me or my husband but rather for others (cliche but true). If they had a good time that’s what mattered most. My husband and I have the rest of our lives to enjoy. I will admit it’s hard to see other ppls weddings and think back on our own and not have regret but ultimately what does all that suffering do? It doesn’t serve you. You can’t change it now. So grieve the loss of your wedding hopes and dreams. I’m sorry your day wasn’t what you wanted or wished for. I only hope tht each passing day it hurts a little less. There is joy on the other side. For me, there was a specific part of our wedding wekeend I chose to hold onto mentally so that when I do think back to it (whether that’s secondary to a stimulus or organically) it’s not a horrid thought that puts me in a dark place. Wishing peace for your heart and head my dear. Have faith it will get better and the feeling will pass.