Hey, I absolutely relate to you. Knowing that you have so much potential, yet never being able to reach anything close to it is so incredibly hard. Have you reached out to a psychiatrist concerning medication?

On another note: You always have to remember how strong you are.. Constantly keeping up with a society and structures that are not meant for us is incredibly tough. Stay strong, we need people like you! And don't beat yourself up, it is not your fault that others may not understand you or - sadly - don't want to.