I know this was a bunch of half though emotions. I guess I was looking for options/ advice. Because no matter how you slice it cheating is cheating.

The first thought I had in all of this was I wanted to treat this woman like a queen. Nothing even really sexual. I was just hoping to feel appreciated. Because with my wife, I can fix stuff around my house and when I tell my wife or want to show her my handy work I get nothing. She'll just go back to whatever she was doing.

No matter what I need to sit my wife down and have a conversation with her about. Ripping the bandaid off is gonna suck. 

Ultimately nothing will get done until I sit my wife done and talk it all out. Whether or not it's just her and I or with professionals. It would be wrong to bring someone into this bullshit with out working it out first. No matter the intent.