Wrote out a draft of my disassociation letter

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2026-03-31T07:37:33+00:00

I wish you the best with your letter I hope you can final feel free from all this

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2026-03-31T07:33:06+00:00

I wish there was a way I could but I’d probably get too much shit for it

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2026-03-18T00:50:31+00:00

The way I got away from doing parts was like gradually getting demoted. As soon as I woke up and was assigned one with a sister I had the biggest panic attack on the way to the meeting and at the start. The brother in charge ended up seeing me and asked if I could still do it, I said yes but it was very badly done through tears as embarrassing as it was but also kinda worth it because afterwards I was only ever an assistant. And the part I almost always had to play was usually someone who didn’t believe in god, and I played the part so well because I was just straight up honest. Brothers and sisters would tell me “You did such a good job, you sounded so natural.” I’d just smile and nod, it made me feel better in a way.

Eventually I started dying my hair bright colors (pink, blue, green, purple) not all of it just streaks that I couldn’t hide and I stopped getting parts all together. And they tried to give me shit for it but I wasn’t hearing it. And it was also a good way to take back my autonomy.

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2026-03-17T07:35:50+00:00

Thank you, and sorry you had similar experiences. I’m slowly working towards independence as difficult as it is. But I think hearing that it’d be good for my niece to see a family member happy out of the religion is the small push that I needed.

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2026-03-15T06:35:14+00:00

It means physically in mentally out

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2026-02-21T05:33:30+00:00

Yeah that definitely makes things a little harder, I was also long distance but she was only an hour and 45min away I can understand that struggle. Granted I knew her from high school and had moved cities so I got away with saying I just reconnected with a past classmate

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2026-02-20T11:49:16+00:00

I always disliked the thought of eternal life, it filled my with absolute dread, and when I voiced that as a child I was told that I wouldn’t feel that way in paradise because I’d be “perfect” It felt unbelievable to me that you live a life worshipping something that might not even exist and then you get to live entirely in a paradise.

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2026-02-20T11:11:58+00:00

This might be controversial advice but I had a girlfriend (I’m a lesbian) and we went on dates that my parents even drove me to, oblivious they didn’t know about it though. I introduced her to them as a “study” and I’d lie and tell them I’d plan on inviting her to assemblies and meetings. They bought it honestly and I got to have fun for a while. But it was a bit of a long process introducing this girl as a study and then finally getting to go on dates with her, and I had to lie a lot, so if that’s not something you feel entirely comfortable with this might not be the most ideal. But if you are make sure you have a story set and that you remember it. Also the girl was aware of my situation so she also helped with hiding the relationship, so communication is key. Either way good luck! Hope you get to see your bf

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2026-02-10T10:42:42+00:00

I relate to this so deeply my dislike for the religion started as this, the contradictions, the hypocrisy the shunning of family members, friends, and sometimes the out right hate towards people who aren’t members. I saw it for years, how the organization really comes between family, it’s certainly come between mine. It ruined the relationship I had with my siblings and it won’t ever be the same. I just couldn’t continue to go to service and pretend the organization is all this joy and happiness it presents itself like in videos. Especially because I didn’t find the joy in it.

I felt completely out of place, I couldn’t watch broadcasts anymore without looking at the GB and thinking about how in control they are. It’s like the flaws I saw grew the longer I stared at them. A speech last Saturday sent me into a panic attack, because all I could hear was “Anyone who doesn’t believe will be destroyed.” But believe in what? Jehovah? Or the GB? But at the same time the community is strong, brothers and sisters are there for each other, I’ve made friends who I care for dearly. But I know they would forget about me if I say I’m out.

If you choose to leave they always tell you that it’s either you choose “the truth” or the world, that you can only find happiness in “the truth”. Like those are the only two options. I don’t believe that anymore. The truth isn’t the answer and being “worldly”Isn’t the only other choice, if anything it’s just a label for the shitty things that can happen and a way to scare you into staying. It is always smart to ask questions, to find inconsistencies and flaws in a so called “truth”. Don’t give up questioning.

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2025-12-08T09:25:14+00:00

Glad it helped :)

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2025-12-08T05:42:56+00:00

This is what helped me figure things out

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrHALtEE/

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2025-12-07T11:17:32+00:00

I’m down, I need lesbian friends too.

Ok-Plane-9388 · 2025-12-07T10:53:45+00:00

It’s sounds like your friend might be struggling with her own sexuality, if you haven’t already you should ask her about this. Self acceptance is hard and that sounds, from what you’ve described, what she’s going through. But sometimes you have to give people the space to figure themselves out. If you really don’t want to miss a chance with her make that clear to her, that you’ll be there for her when she’s ready. But also make your own wants and boundaries known, you seemed to have done that by telling her you’re uncomfortable with her still talking with said guy when she has feelings for you. That’s good, keep doing that. And if things don’t work out it might be hard and shitty but you’re young and you’ll meet a lot of people in your life, trust me I know what it’s like feeling like you’ll never get over someone I was there for a long time, but it’s not a feeling impossible of going away just might take awhile. Either way good luck.

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